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Rooftop Photoshoot + Dating

2012-02-11T16:44:00.000-08:00

Hello people!! XD

Last week i had another private photoshoot with Bambam, yah, haritu actually hari di mana bambam saya teman kan saya untuk menghantar surat berhenti kerja..Dan ia juga merupakan hari pertama bambam jejak kaki dekat Sunway Pyramid..(bak kata dia lah~)

After hantar surat berhenti dan bank in cheque, kitorang pun makan-2 lepak-2 beborak dan bambam kusyuk melihat orang Ice skating...Comel ja dia...macam kanak-2 riang excited tak sudah..hahaha!!

We held this photoshoot at Sunway's rooftop (dekat parking kereta) , time tu the whole rooptop was ours!! tak ada orang tak ada kereta..best je owh!! hahaha XD..sana lah kitorang dok snap-2 gaya ala-2 model muslimah tersyohor!! hehehehe *perahsantan*

Anyway, qiqi yang editkan picture ni semua secara hantam sebab saya tak ada lah pandai mana pun nak mengedit ni...main bantai..ape rasa cantik saya pun letak lah..maaf kalau rasa nak termuntah tengok gambar saya yang tak berapa nak pro sangat..heee~ gambar di ambil semata-mata nak completekan portfolio je lah sayang~ saya mana mampu nak hire pro photographer, nak mintak orang entah siapa-2 tangkap gambar saya..jadi biar lah buat sendiri, kalau ada yang offer saya akan terima..ewahhhhh~ XD
Anyway, qiqi harap exposure macam ni akan membiasakan diri qiqi dengan dunia modeling nanti, saya terpaksa belajar sendiri, dari bawah..bukan senang-2 nak up up and away kannsss~ but it's okay..Anyway, i've been really busy lately..dengan hangout with my friends before starting my new job (which is today)...jadi tak ada masa nak online sangat..job baru boleh tahan best..first time kerja dalam office, dapat meja sendiri..lappy sendiri..woot-2!! kerja pun dapat dengar lagu hentak dagu dalam MP3 saya..kerja relax..ikot time kita...jadi over all..okay lah, tak pressure mana, cuma kena rajin and jangan tangguh-2 kerja..=)

Insya'allah , gaji pertama nanti saya nak beli BB!!!! (kau dah ketingalan nokk~) haaa..yes, BB kan merupakan impian/azam tahun baru saya...actually sebab senang nak BBM dengan bambam nanti...lepastu nak tukar no ke Digi, boleh free call dengan dia..heee~ start kerja baru ni kitorang akan jarang jumpa, jadi nak tak nak terpaksa lah bersabar. As long as tak putus bertegur dalam phone (buat masa ni belum putus pun..kalau tak text tak sah hidup =P)

Esok is valentine's day, but sebagai seorang islam..kita tak digalakan menyambut benda remeh tu..kannsss..jadi tak apa lah..tak sabar nak celebrate anniversary ke 6 bulan dengan bambam (tanpa putus uollssss!!)...heeee....i'm excited..and i freaking miss him!! (time to text dia~) Bye bye!! (^^,)v

What If?

2012-02-10T00:56:00.000-08:00

Hello lovebirds!

Well, today i would like to share to you all about a video i stumbled upon when i was busy browsing through blogs. A video caught my eye, and i would like to kongsi-kongsi lah.

So, i bet most of you have watched the proposal video and also the Long Distance Relationship video that has been the talk on the internet right? I bet you did, to me.. i did not cry watching those videos, i was at a mutual emotion at that time..maybe because i can't relate to it much. Not that i don't understand it..It is sweet and all, but just put it this way..It is not my kind of thing. All sweet and cuddly. People cry watching that video, and i know a few who did. Even "HER"...

But what ever it is, I DID NOT!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!

What made me cry was this video i watched, when the story follows, my mind follows as well, thinking about the relationship i'm in. This video as it is, is actually a reality, a fact that would happen in a relationship. (well, not that im saying its a true story) But the concept of it. It is hard to portray what i am trying to say, so i just leave you people to judge yourself. As for me, when i was watching this, i was thinking of bambam..(hence the fact that his been missing the whole day today)...Sometimes when our relationship gets "cold"..the thought of losing him just scares me. Tapi kalau dah jodoh tak ada, tak boleh buat apa kan? So yeah, the person that i would really want to share this video with is Bambam himself. So anyway..Enjoy! =)

Shoot escape

2012-02-08T23:46:00.001-08:00

Hello cherrieos!! XD *is that even a word??*

Okay, today i would like to post up a few pictures of myself, it was actually a private photoshoot i had with bambam a day before his birthday, he was my photographer. And i was his (which he didn't allow me to upload his pictures).

Anyhow, this was taken for fun. Which also come in handy for future use as a portfolio of myself. Yes, it's been awhile since people had taken pictures of me, i was always my own photographer you see. So it's nice to experience changes sometimes.

Speaking of changes, i thought of slowly exposing myself to being a model (with some help) , but i am more interested to be a model which is more focus in the direction of modeling for magazine adds, boutique, wedding photos , abayas....you know..the mainstream..even so i won't reject any offer that comes my way. Bak kata orang, rezeki jangan di tolak.
So if i do get a shot at being a model someday..i won't hesitate to grab that chance. As it is also an ambition i aim in my life. Bambam is helping me to get exposed and teaching me a thing or two in this industry..i really need all the help i can get! Owh..and maybe andi would help me in the future too..hahaha XD
Btw, i am actually starting to pick up a hobby. Currently learning about it. And maybe someday when i have a more stable income, i would pick up another one =) what is it? well, biar lah rahsia buat sementara ni naaa~
These three pictures was edited by my bambam..and i edited the rest..you can see the difference i must say.hahaha!!
Okay, i guess that is it for now, don't know what else to talk about.. so till then..toodles!! ^_^v
This is my favourite picture though..and plus this picture had a lot of likes in my facebook account..teheheh!! XD

Diskriminasi Wanita Bertudung

2012-02-05T19:24:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum to all my readers out there =)

Today qiqi nak story dekat korang tentang the things that has been replaying in my head lately. maaf kalau saya emotional sikit yea~ yes, baru-2 ini , qiqi sedang bergelut dengan mencari perkerjaan baru because the place yang qiqi berkerja sekarang..well..to say..family saya tak berapa nak berkenan, including me and bambam..kerja bukan tak elok, cuma the environment and the pay is well..tak bersesuaian dengan kelayakan saya and ada unsur-2 yang tak berapa nak elok lah.

So, pada minggu lepas, qiqi decided untuk slowly mencari kerja macam biasa..tetapi jujur, malam sebelum saya nak mencari kerja tu, hati qiqi tak sedap..because in a way i know i won't get it.. bukan sebab tak confident..its because i know what does THESE PEOPLE WANT!

Qiqi, bukan berfikiran sempit, but dah memang terbukti diskriminasi ini wujud di dalam negara kita. Masa dulu-2 bila qiqi nak cari kerja, qiqi layak saja..in a day i can get 3-4 offers untuk terus memulakan perkerjaan baru tu A.S.A.P..cuma saya nak atau tidak saja..senang bukan? yes, dulu masa qiqi free hair lah katakan..tetapi masa dulu qiqi hanya bergelut dengan fact that I am not chinese..kalau korang perasan, banyak vacancy yang mengatakan dorang mahukan CHINESE ONLY right?? tak percaya cuba korang pergi kedai-2 lebih-2 lagi kedai baju sekitar KL senang cuba korang pergi Time Square, tengok betul atau tak?....bila qiqi meluahkan isu ni dekat parents qiqi, dorang just cakap..it's because dorang prefer orang yang boleh cakap cina..because maybe majority people who shops there are chinese..okay fine..saya paham..but jujur..masa qiqi interview..dorang hanya nak chinese dan bukan nya orang boleh cakap cina..Racist bukan?? what if a muslim or an india walks in and wanted to apply for that job?..bare in mind that this person is excellent in speaking and writing in chinese. tapi of course dorang tak akan dapat perkerjaan itu sebab apa? well..dorang tak putih and mata dorang tak sepet..senang cakap dorang ni bukan species cina mali la...memang tertera kat sana that our country is soooooo racist. Padahal negara ini adalah negara berbilang kaum..bukan negara china..and what about 1 MALAYSIA???? macam tak berguna with the ayat 1MALASIA...rasa2 boleh campak dalam tong hitam lagi bagus! kannnsss!????

Okay, enough with the chinese, dulu so called kelayakan saya tak lah begitu berat, sebab masa tu saya masih boleh dapat kerja sebab saya free hair, pakai pun seksi..mana tak nya..keluar macam nak g club ja..salang kalah orang bukan islam ini..tapi itu dulu lah..zaman masa saya hidup ala-ala jahiliah..sekarang ini alhamdullilah, saya sudah mula mendekatkan diri dengan islam dan saya mula bertudung..but sadly..lagi saya mendekatkan diri dengan islam, lagi susah dan mencabar hidup saya. Qiqi rasa dorang ni lebih suka kita berbogel berbanding bertutup..benda jahat memang orang lagi suka..benda baik mana orang nak pandang.

Bayangkan, orang bertudung ini di kategorikan sebagai kolot and jijik..like EWWW!!! aku tak nak kawan dengan dia sebab dia bukan hot setap? dia tak stylo? minah kampung pakai tudung..watafishhh!!?? and ape yang menyedihkan lagi..masa saya mula pakai tudung ini..even family saya malu dengan saya..as if saya ini menjatuhkan status mereka...even family sendiri cakap kalau nak berubah biar dari dalam dan bukan luaran sahaja..okay fine..saya tahu maksud dia..kita kena jaga not only aurat luaran but also aurat dalaman..tapi in a way..saya dapat tangkap maksud tersirat mereka that says "tak guna kau bertudung, bukak jelah, kau tak sedia,berlitup semua..menyusahkan..kalau nak litup..tu haa..pakai cam ninja-2 tuh(berpurdah)".. lagipun pernah once qiqi kecil hati dengan statement parents saya masa dia kata, dia malu nak mintak kawan dia tolong carikan qiqi kerja sebab well..qiqi bertudung, takut dorang tak nak..saya kan berlitup....hmm...bertudung itu pilihan saya sendiri, hak saya, once i've made my mind i'm going to stick to it! I dont care if my family down kan saya or saya terpaksa bersusah untuk hidup..tapi saya buat benda ni kerana diri saya and kerana allah..saya tak akan sesekali bukak sebab kemahuan duniawi yang tak kemana ini. adakah itu satu kesalahan?? Am i an embarrassment to my family and my country??

And ape yang qiqi dapat lihat melalui perubahan hidup qiqi is that, masa qiqi mencari kerja hari tu, mereka boleh cakap " owh, kami cuma nak orang yang free hair sahaja" nak kerja kene bukak tudung..so senang cakap, qiqi tak dapat lah kerja jawabnya..sia-2 sahaja qiqi mencari..semua tempat bagi jawapan yang sama sahaja, padahal qiqi lebih dari layak, ada diploma bukan belajar takat PMR ja, qiqi ade banyak pengalaman berkerja..and plus..i can speak fluent english, so why qiqi tak layak? sebab qiqi bertudung??..and bila qi tengok boutique-2 mahal ini..dorang semua free hair..kalau nak bertudung..hah! jadi cleaner tandas lah kau..jadi pekerja dekat food court lah makan nya..nak tinggi pun kerja office jelah..tu jelah yang mampu...then ape guna qiqi study tinggi-2 habis duit beribu-2 setakat nak kerja cleaner tandas?? =_=

And now i'm stuck with the fact that i cant get a job just because qiqi bertudung..no wonder we see a lot of ladies that are covered are working setakat kerani saja..I don't want to spend my life working as a kerani..i have dreams and ambitions..i can't afford knowing myself that i can't succeed just because i choose to follow what god have stated for us women? And apa yang buat qiqi lebih risau is that insya'allah dalam masa 1 tahun lebih ini qiqi akan mula berjubah..memakai abaya..and no more seluar2 jeans yang bak kata orang..berhijab tapi berbogel..tapi..what would happen to me if i do so?? memang sah aku tak akan dapat kerja langsung!! haish...boleh bikin gila pikir pasal benda ini... but yeah, this is my point, my worries, i cant find a way out with this issue, and about me actually living the life i want. Susah kan?

So what do you think? have you experience this kind of things before like how i did? pernah korang di tindas sebabkan korang bertudung?? I would like to know.

Owh kepada yang terasa dengan my post or about cleaner tandas or kerani..saya bukan berniat nak down kan korang..cuma ini pandangan saya..bila kelayakan tinggi, belajar tinggi tapi dipaksa berkerja tak mengikut kelayakan? baik tak perlu belajar kan? baik kahwin awal duduk rumah..nak kerja pun takat lepas UPSR dah boleh kerja..i wonder macam mana lah orang yang pegang masters and PHD ni cari kerja..hahadoi~

Bambam's Birthday

2012-02-04T06:08:00.000-08:00

Hello and welcome my anonymous readers out there. *wink ;)

So as i start my post, i would like to inform you all first that this is just a personal post of mine and the reason i'm posting this is because ..saya nak letak gambar ja.WAKAKAKAKAK!!!! *haha..i know...not funny -.-*

SOOOOOO..here i go..well yesterday was actually my bambam's 22nd birthday which falls on 4th February, yes..his getting older by the second..haha! Jadi, di sebabkan keadaan jadual saya yang full house..saya terpaksa lah mencari satu cara untuk at least..sambut birthday dia..

Yelah kan..2 bulan lepas dia sanggup datang jumpa saya for my birthday...so yeah..after much planning..i decided to take a day off and meet my bambam at KLCC..
On his birthday..qiqi hadiahkan dia patung ni yang di nama kan MILO (which obviously saya tak tahu nak namakan apa) but yeah..we stick with calling him MILO...and i also gave him a ring for his birthday.
Cerita pasal cincin pulak, qiqi bagi opinion kat dia kalau-2 boleh kita bertukar gifts iaitu cincin couple (and maybe akan terukir nama kitorang nanti..weeee~) on valentines day this coming 14 February...tapi yelahkan..bagi seorang islam..kita tak sepatutnya menyambut benda alah tu semua..jadi instead of on the 14/2 ni..qiqi bagi tahu dia that, why not we exchange gift on our 6 months anniversary which falls on the 26/2..yup...kitorang akan genap 6 bulan bersama tak lama lagi..alhamdullilah..syukur~ qiqi plan nak hadiahkan dia cincin terukir nama qiqi kat dia, dan dia hadiahkan cincin untuk qiqi yang terukir nama dia..sweet kan ;)..sharing is caring...kalau stakat satu pihak bagi tak berguna..jadi biarlah berlaku sama adill..baru ade memories..lagipun sebelum-2 ni qiqi tak pernah buat benda-2 macam ni..apa lagi dapat hadiah dari seorang insan bernama lelaki.

Apa yang qi hargai sangat2 about this relationship is that, sepanjang kitorang menjalinkan perasaan yang di namakan cinta ini..qiqi tak pernah walau sekali pun ber-break up dengan bambam..seteruk mana pun kitorang bergaduh (selalunya sebab perangai saya yang childish la~) sebanyak mana pun saya buat dia annoyed dengan perangai tak senonoh saya..or se-gatal mana pun saya anggap dia layan gegirl lain..yang obviously buat saya jealous..kitorang tak pernah walau sedetik pun berpisah..nak merajuk pun tak sampai 24jam..tak silap qiqi..qiqi merajuk dengan dia pun sampai tak mahu contact 2 kali je kot? hahaha...satu progress yang baik bukan? sebelum ni..couple2 qiqi semua kecundang tak sampai 1bulan..paling lama qiqi pernah couple pun cukup-2 nak sampai 6 bulan..tu pun dengan mikey..tapi dalam sepanjang couple tu..ade kitorang putus and couple balik, alah kau..setakat couple then putus pastu couple balik..then masih nak anggap tarikh lama korang couple tu adalah masa korang bersama memang tak lah. bagi saya, hubungan ni tak ada titik noktah baru boleh dianggap relation yang betol2..kalau putus sambung balik macam tipu diri sendiri pun ada jugak kan korang betol2 bersama as bf/gf just 3-4 bulan..tapi anggap couple dah 6 bulan sebab tarikh lama..what for baybeh??..well kalau nak dianggap mikey tuh..maybe qiqi couple dengan dia 5bulan lebih je kot..not 6months betol-2 ...but you can see how my relationship dengan hilmy kan??..never ever once broke up. jadi ini baru di-consider betul..kannnnnssss~ *suka!* =D

CHOIII!!! ape lah main couple-2 ni..macam budak-2 ja..hahaha!! yeah..itu semua cinta monyet..but qiqi harapkan hubungan qiqi ini adalah cinta yang betul..dua-2 dah besar panjang kan..tak ada reason nak main tukar-2 pasangan macam sepender basah..cukup ada satu..setia pada satu..honestly..both of us memang dah plan nak mengikat hubungan ni. sampai ada satu ketika dulu kitorang nak nikah gantung..but disebabkan nasihat kedua orang tua kami..we did not do it..because tak guna jugak..nikah..but then tinggal asing-2...so yeah..as long ada kepercayaan dalam diri and niat ikhlas bersama pasangan cukup lah..masa tu akan tiba jugak..kitorang hanya pisah sebabkan tanggung jawab masing-2..bambam kan tengah belajar..and qiqi nak dia continue belajar..sebab ini membabitkan masa depan dia dan mungkin juga saya..lagipun..qiqi nak nanti family kitorang senang..tak pening nak urus anak-2..semua benda cukup..ada serba serbi..lagipun qiqi masih nak capai cita-2 qiqi..bila semua dah stabil..savings dah cukup..assets dah cukup..insya'allah kitorang akan jalankan apa yang patut..kan? =)

(There..that's the ring!! XD)

Tapi apa-2 pun..qiqi bersyukur dengan apa yang kitorang dah kecapi sepanjang hubungan ni..bambam dah mula berubah..dia dah tak gatal macam dulu..lebih lama kitorang bersama..makin setia dia dekat qiqi..tak nafi..dia pernah cakap dulu dia tak ada pun perasan sayang dekat qiqi..cuma suka je..dia start sayang qiqi pun masa kitorang dah masuk 2bulan bersama..and now..he starts calling me his wife..."isteri"..time makan kat KFC masa birthday dia tu..qi perasaan dia selalu sebut isteri..*suka!*..and yeah..looking at his fb pun..dah tak ada sangat orang nak mengatal..lagipun dia sekarang dah tag relationship dengan qiqi..alhamdullilah..tercapai jugak akhirnya..susah betul tau nak buat dia tag relationship ni..terkejut berok kawan-2 qiqi..semua happy sebab at last he is now beginning to slowly open up to me =)..and plus di sebabkan pengaruh bambam..qiqi mula mendekatkan diri qiqi dengan islam..bambam cakap qiqi dah banyak berubah..and dia semakin sayangkan qiqi and tak sanggup nak lepaskan qiqi..alhamdullilah...syukur dengan apa yang kitorang dapat kecapi...

Mohd Hilmy Sufiyan Bin Mazilan...i know we have a long way to go, and i know there is still a lot of ups and downs we have to face later in the future..but i hope the bond between us is strong and we can overcome it together. i pray for the best in our relationship..kalau ada jodoh..insya'allah i would be yours, if not, then you would always be someone who i always remember because throughout our relationship..i am always happy when i'm with you..happy birthday my babyboy..may god bless you with good health and fortune. I love you like nothing (you know what i mean =D )...Assalamualaikum~ ^_^

Loyal Consumer ♥

2012-02-03T05:24:00.006-08:00

Hello Ladies!!! owh..and umm..gentleman...

Tehehehe!! Okay well today qiqi nak post about the make ups and products that i usually use.

Yes! Majority of people would have a certain product or brand that they are fond of using right? Yelah kan, macam pergi warung mamak, Kalau teh tarik dia sedap, mesti kita akan selalu pergi kedai tu , dah tak nak pergi kedai lain. Betol tak?

Haa...well, today qiqi nak perkenalkan dekat korang product yang qiqi selalu guna dan akan start guna balik....so, what's with the wait? Let's move with the introduction ^_^

Okay, this is a make up range from Estee lauder..dulu-2 qiqi selalu pakai brand ni, macam blusher, lipstick, mascara, eye shadow, etc. So yeah, boleh di katakan most of my make up collections is of this brand. Tapi itu semua my ummi punya lah, bila dia dah tak nak , dia bagi lah anak dia pakai kan..dulu qi selalu dapat..sekarang jangan harap lah..senjak adik perempuan qi dah besar ni, dia awal2 dah kebas dulu. Jadi tak dapat lah qi nak mengumpul lagi. Dulu masa tak berkerja cecikai ni semua..qi hanya mampu beli barang makeup dari sinma , paling mahal pun elianto.. Tapi bila di pikirkan balik. I was really in love with Estee Lauder's product, so alang-2 dah kerja ni..why not qi kumpul duit and start mengumpul dan membuat this brand as my main makeup brand instead right? =)

* Tak salah kalau nak spoilkan diri in certain things right?*

Okay, this next product is from Silkygirl. I started using this about a month ago..honestly qiqi lebih suka pakai gel eyeliner dari liquid eye liner..reason is because liquid selalu menceceh masuk mata..me no like lah..hohoho! but previously i bought my first gel eyeliner at sinma..jujur..eyeliner tu selalu smears..tu yang tak berapa best nak pakai..qi nak try jugak eyeliner ni..tapi tulah kan..tak kan nak membazir...so i waited till my eyeliner habis..baru tried out this brand ..and to my surprise..it's really awesome!! dah lah pekat melekat..and yang penting dia tak smear..so ape lagi? stick to this saja lah kan...nak buat stock bebanyak lah lepas ni..ugugugugu~
Ni pulak pencil eyeliner favourite saya, pertama sekali di perkenalkan oleh adik saya, dulu dia beli warna hitam..bila qiqi test drive dia punya..FUYOOO!!!! terbaik!!! so ape lagi..kita pun usya2 lah kedai tu..and of course eyeliner putih dan hitam adalah wajib dalam makeup beg saya okeng..haaa..anyway, this brand is from etude house..yes! make up fresh from Korea..it is called "Styling eyeliner"..jadi ape-2 pun..insya'allah..saya tak akan menukar brand sebab saya suka sangat2 pencil eye liner ni..hehehe..cuba lah..mesti korang akan puas hati~

Ni pulak, is my favourite perfume..dulu-2 qiqi selalu pakai perfume ni..It's from YSL..Babydoll collection..ummi qi pernah hadiah kan qiqi perfume ni dulu..and seriously i fell in love with it..satu botol perfume ni is about RM300..bentuk dia macam diamond and i prefer the pink one..dulu ade 4 colors..but the pink is the best lah..baru ladies2 kan..hehehe..qi sekarang dalam misi untuk menghabiskan semua perfume dekat dalam bilik qiqi, spray banyak2..then bila semua dah habis..i would start buying this again..owyeah!!!!

Okay lah, i guess that is for now..I've talked to bambam about it and he supports me..as long as i'm happy..dia tak kisah kalau qiqi nak jadi high maintainance balik..hahaha..yeah..high maintainance pun at least saya beli dengan duit saya sendiri kan..as long as tak bongkak sudah..hohoho..toodles! ^_^

Video Mania

2012-01-29T16:39:00.001-08:00

Hello Boys and Girls!!

Yesterday, which is on sunday, was actually my offday from work..So, since qiqi tak pergi mana-2, pendek kata tak melepak. Jadi sepanjang hari qiqi mengadap PC jelah..alang-alang tu , saya pun cuba lah supaya tidak memalaskan diri dan membuat apa yang patut..yes besides kemas rumah and all.

Selepas mengerjakan rumah tu se-ala kadar, (sah kau pemalas!)..qiqi pun lari pecut 1000km supaya dapat melandingkan bontot ni dulu sebelum adik-2 dah cop pc..(nampak sangat menipu)...hohohoho!! so anyways..dalam masa 5jam beronline tanpa mengerakan bontot dari kerusi beroda ni. 3jam tu qiqi sebok merecord video..se-ala kadar yang mungkin (sebab saya malas cikgu!)....jadi ini lah hasil nya..maaf kalau tak se-awesome mana! hahaha!!

Anyway, hope you guys enjoy these videos..maaf kalau ada cacat cela di sini sana,no one is perfect okay.. (dalam video tu lah nokk)..toodles! ^_^

Video 1

Video 2

Video 3

The Big Day

2012-01-21T19:15:00.000-08:00

Yes! the big day finally arrived, hari yang ku nanti-nantikan buat sekian lama!! OMJAYYY!! I'm so excited..!!

I've been waiting for this day for a very long time, working my ass off towards it, sanggup tak makan tak minum, pikir punya pikir, and in the end alhamdullilah, syukur kepada tuhan, tercapai juga impian ku.

The big day finally arrives, on the 21st January 2012 yes tarikh (21/1/2012) cantik kan tarikh dia..saya telah bersatu bersama my bambam and made it official. =)

What am i talking about?? well..have you heard that "TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE??"

well, THAT'S what i'm talking about...here's the drill..I and Bambam..HAD....

Wait for it

wait for it

WAIT FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FINALLY GOT A MATCHING MP3 PLAYER!!!!!!! WOOOT WOOTT!!!!!!!!

Yeah guys, its hard work and pure hard considerations i had to go through...no kidding, with the amount of salary i had to sacrifice, and time and other measures..susah kowt!!!!!

Anyways, on that day itself, we had our date included..yeah..bukan setakat MP3 hunting..tapi date sekali..date kali ni kitorang tak tengok wayang or whatever, just eat and talk..memboyotkan diri...tengok lah sendiri mamat atas ni...lepas dah kenyang..nyenyak dia tido..macam baby!! hahaha ..comel~ XD
And di sebabkan tak nak gangu dia, qiqi pun bergambar lah seorang diri...haaa..bagi dia time untuk rest, yelah kan..sian dia jauh-2 datang...no kindding..2 hours journey just to see me..i've been through it and its really a lot of hassle just to get to KL.

Anyways, malas nak cakap banyak, you guys just enjoy the pictures jela okay?? (motif up post ni pun sebab nak muat turun gambar ja, yelahkan..kenangan~)

Owh, kepada yang dok nak cari point gaya tudung ni ikot sapa...well..i stumble upon a video tutorial kalau korang berminat..nama owner of this style is "Cala Qisya" tapi yang cara shawl qiqi pakai ni is actually created by me, bila saya tersilap lilit shawl cala qisya ni..yes , its another Qiqi Bunny's style! kelakar kan how mistakes can actually create something new..haa..i decided to use it on my date with bambam sebab bambam nak tengok..tapi satu slack..pashmina putih xsesuai untuk muka saya~nampak macam terlebih bulat pulak..haha! anyways, the shawl tutorial insya'allah qi akan buat dalam masa terdekat ni..dia sama cam cala (by the top) by bottom and cara it turn out is different..sebab somehow..qiqi nye style ade cam bentuk "bunga" at the side..and bahagian bunga tu kita boleh la selit brouch anting2 or anting2 itself..=)

Haaa...kepada yang suspens tengok jari ku berinai..ni inai qi dapat dari cik su qiqi bila dia balik haji haritu...yelah kan teringin nak pakai inai pekat..this inai fresh from mekah yawww!! ye kengkawan..saya belom jadi isteri orang lagi..well..not for now..saja je nak suspense kan orang...hahaha!! XD

Roti Jala Pelangi

2012-01-16T00:09:00.000-08:00

Hello sweethearts!

Okay, harini qiqi nak share dengan korang semua resepi yang qiqi buat experiment test drive semalam alang-2 tengah cuti kan.

Anyway, i was inspired by this idea from a blog that i accidentally stumble upon a few days back. ni kira terjumpa dalam blog mak-2 orang yang suka memasak la kan..huhu

Resepi ni was originally called roti jala tikar ape tah..mengkuang kot?? saya lupa..haha...but since roti jala saya tak brapa nak jadi dari segi aspek mengkuang nya...well blame it on the lack of utensils la...it actually have a special bottle to create a perfect tikar looking roti jala.

But what ever it is, let's move to the actual recipe okay? =D

Qiqi rasa lebih afdal kalau post resepi ni dalam bahasa melayu kot =)

Bahan -Bahan

2cawan Tepung Gandum

3biji Telur Ayam

2cawan Air Masak

1/2 tsp Garam

Pewarna makanan yang di sukai.

Cara - Cara

1: Gaul kesemua bahan-2 tadi kecuali pewarna makanan sehingga sebati.

2: Pastikan adunan tadi dapat mengalir dengan sempurna melalui acuan roti jala.

(Sebelum mula masak membuat roti jala, pastikan adunan tadi mengalir dengan sempurna , untuk mengelakan adunan tadi keluar tompok-2, kalau dah pasti adunan tu boleh mengalir, baru start masukan warna makanan dan masak.)

3 : Bahagikan adunan tadi kepada beberapa bahagian dan masukan pewarna makanan yang disukai.

4 : Panaskan frying pan dan sapukan minyak masak supaya adunan tidak melekat pada frying pan.

5 : Masak adunan tadi berselang seli membentuk corak pelangi. Setelah masak gulungkan. Ulang procedure ini sampai habis.

6: Last sekali of coirse la hidang dan makan!! haha XD

Hati & Pedal Masak Cili

2012-01-15T23:46:00.000-08:00

Hello ladies!

Okay..menurut dari tajuk status..agak mengerikan (maybe)..yelahkan, hati dan pedal..WATAFISHHH????

Well, qiqi tak tahu nak letak nama apa untuk resepi kali ini, jadi main bedal jelah. huhuhu...Anyway, this dish is actually my dad's favorite..Ummi qi selalu masak lauk ni untuk baba. sooo...one day tu, alang-2 duduk rumah sorang-2, qiqi pun try lah buat since i have to cook lunch on that day.

Anyways, not interested to waste my time babbling.Let's head on to the recipe. =)

Bahan - Bahan

1mangkuk Pedal & Hati Ayam

4sudu Bawang Mesin

2sudu Cili Boh (cili mesin)

1/4cup Minyak masak

Gula ( secukup rasa)

Pati Stock Ayam (secukup rasa)

Cara - Cara

1 : Panas kan minyak masak, dan tumis cili & bawang mesin sehingga pecah minyak.

2 : Masuk kan hati & Pedal ayam. Setelah ayam dah masak. Masuk kan gula dan pati ayam secukup rasa.

3 : Hidang & Makan!!

TIPS!!!

1 : Untuk lebih sedap. Korang boleh gorengkan dahulu hati dan pedal ayam sebelum masukan dalam sambal tadi.

2: Korang pun boleh masukan wedges atau kentang goreng kedalam sambal ni, but make sure goreng dahulu kentang tu, and masukan masa last sekali nak elak kentang dari lebik dan hancur.

ENJOY!!

Kuey Tiow Goreng Basah Express!

2012-01-15T03:44:00.000-08:00

Hello lovelies!

Harini qiqi nak share dekat korang one of my recipe yang qiqi selalu buat ketika saya tengah lapar + bosan + malas.

Yes! kuey tiow goreng merupakan salah satu hidangan favorite qiqi! lebih-2 kalau dye basah-2 gitu..kalau hirup kuah~ mak aih!! nikmat uoollss!! butttttt...not every stalls can make the best kuey tiow basah. memang susah lah nak jumpa.

So anyway, tanpa membuang masa, lets get to the recipe!

Bahan - Bahan

4ulas Bawang Putih (potong halus)

Isi ayam,sotong udang atau apa-apa yang korang nak pakai..here i use chicken. (potong ikot bite size)

1cwn Kuey tiow (lagi sedap kalau pakai kuey tiow yang jenis halus, yang orang buat untuk sup)

1biji Telur Ayam

1tsp Kicap pekat

3tbs Sos Tiram

1/4cwn Air Masak

2tsb Minyak Masak

Cara - Cara

1 : Panaskan minyak masak dan tumis bawang putih sehingga naik bau.

2 : Masukan Isi ayam,udang @ sotong sehingga 2/3 masak.

3: Masukan kuey tiow dan goreng dalam 10 saat.

4 : Masukan sos tiram dan gaul sehingga sebati. Seterusnya masukan kicap pekat.

5 : Masukan air, gaulkan dan biar ia mendidih. Setelah mendidih, masukan telur, tutupkan telur tadi dengan sebahagian kuey tiow. biarkan selama 10 saat. kemudian padamkan api. Hidang! =)

(telur hanya diberi masak 10 saat sebab qiqi suka bila dia lembik-2..if korang tak berapa suka telur yang lebik..korang boleh biarkan lebih lama )

ENJOY!!!

Makeup Backup

2012-01-15T01:47:00.000-08:00

Hello ladies!

Today would be a random post by me..hoho! okay..saya suka suki ja post this things up, since its my shopping spree for this month..yes, tak banyak shopping gara-gara..gaji pun tak banyak..shhhhh~ =__=

Okay..whatever it is..i want to share with you girls the things that i bought..which is of course was kind of on promotion that day, yes..since i ran out of liquid eyeliner and falsies..i decided to buy some back ups..and of course, tak salah beli lebih-2 kan? dah nama nya back ups..okay..qiqi actually dah stop pakai liquid eyeliner since i started wearing the gel eyeliner..which obviously always smears...so then, i decided to go back to my usually choice which is liquid instead... even though it can be a little troublesome to apply.

I got the eyeliner at the price of rm15..but since its on promotion of buy one get one free..ape lagi..tibai jela dua-2...heheheh =D

Secondly i bought some falsies..i had to throw away my old falsies, sebab haritu qiqi ingat kononya lah nak bersihkan falsies ni ngan air panas..lepas dah rendam punya rendam..bila time to carik-2 kan the glue off..tiba2 tercarik the falsies instead..and from 1 pair got destroyed...i ended up destroying all my falsies...so there you have it..8kotak falsies saya di campak ke rumah baru dia..which is the TONG SAMPAH...haaa...

Since dapat duit dah kan..qi ingat nak invest on new ones, so i bought the 10pairs in a box kind of falsies..lebih jimat kan? it was on promo too..one box was rm10..buy two i think i payed about rm18...20% diskaun kot...lupa dah...hehehe.. saya happy dapat falsies banyak-2..baru lah bulat mata saya yang dah sememangnya bulats!! LOL
Next shopping would be next saturday, i was planning to go on a date with bambam, and get myself a MP3 just like the one his using..he bought his with me a few months back..jadi pikir-2 why not get mine at the same shop...well, actually i wanted to get myself an Ipod Classic..but since all i wanted is to hear music..so theres no harm in buying something that can actually play music right?? lagi pun having a matching MP3 with your boyfriend is kind of sweet, no?? =)

Recipe : Daging Masak Dendeng.

2012-01-13T16:57:00.000-08:00

Hello pembaca-pembaca yang qiqi sayang semua! hohohohohoho!! *ketawa ala2 ratu spoiled*

Harini qiqi nak share with you all one of my favorite dish yang ummi qi masak, yang qi suka sangat2 nak makan..meratah benda alah ni pun tak pe...Resipi ni qiqi tak ada peluang nak masak sendiri, selalu nya qiqi tolong ja ummi dekat dapur. (nampak sangat aku ni pemalas)

Anyways, gambar dekat bawah ni bukan gambar original yang qi snap sendiri ya kengkawan..it was taken dekat tempat yang obvious iaitu..GOOGLE!!!!! =D *qi amek sebab takde gambar*

Soooo....malas nak membuang masa, let's get straight to the recipe!

Bahan-Bahan

Daging (potong bentuk cube)

Bawang putih

Bawang Ros (bawang merah)

Cili Hijau Hidup

Gula

Stock Pati Ikan Bilis

(Maaf saya tak letak kuantiti dia, sebab saya masak ikot sedap hati je...tip just take a guess how many people is eating dan masak lah ikot bilangan orang tu)

Cara-Cara

Bahagian A (Daging)

Rebus daging hingga empuk, kemudian tumbuk daging mengunakan lesung batu or apa-apa..yang penting biar daging tadi penyek not hancur okay?? (ini kerana senang untuk makan daging tadi)

Next, daging yang penyek tadi di goreng sehingga 2/3 masak (jangan garing sangat). Letak ketepi.

Bahagian B (Bumbu)

Tumbuk sekali Cili hijau, Bawang Putih dan Bawang ros, jangan blend kan sebab nak biarkan bumbu tu hancur tapi masih dalam keadaan kasar.

Gorengkan Bumbu tadi dalam minyak panas, bila bumbu tadi mula naik bau. Masuk kan Pati ikan bilis dan gula sesedap rasa..nisbah gula 1/3 daripada nisbah pati ikan bilis iaitu 2/3 (dah macam cikgu sains pulak).

Bila agak-2 bumbu dah nak masak tu, masuk kan daging. Gaulkan hingga sebati. Hidangkan.WALLAH!!! siap pun =D

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Okay people, saya tau resepi saya ni di post ala kadar ja, tak macam blog-2 mak mak yang lain macam pro chef gitu..hahaha...qiqi just harap korang paham jela yeah?

Anyway, hope you guys enjoy this dish..toodles!!♥

A New Favorite band ~♥

2012-01-10T17:31:00.000-08:00

Thank's to a friend of mine who posted this song on facebook, after hearing it, i fell deeply in love with this band. like seriously! OMJAYYY!!! dah lama kot qiqi tak melayan lagu macam ni..yelahkan, orang sebok berkerja..mana ada masa sangat..ugugugu~ Anyways, the guy in this video who's name is actually Nicholas Matthews., reminds me of my ex ..but only in this video jela..hench the makeup..lol..but that ex was not a good ex though..played me out..haha..watafish!!?? takpelah..saya gembira sekarang kot with my life...but ape-2 pun se-alim mana qiqi nanti..i won't ever deny my true self of the weirdness in me...yes, saya masih melayan lagu hentak kepala angin..pakai eyeliner macam budak zaman sekolah..haha..tuuttt!!!

Anyway, speaking of this band...this song i dedicate it specially to that gegirl yang tak puas hati dengan saya..Dengar lah ea sayang..dalami lah liriks dia..tak susah mana pun english dia..harap awak boleh paham. Kalau tak, boleh lah search kat google..mana lah tau ade dalam bahasa melayu ka..hee.trolllll!!!!! XD

Bye bye!! Assalamualaikum~

Family Love♥

2012-01-06T19:30:00.001-08:00

Hello sweetcakes!

Today, directly typing my way from my bambam's very own personal lappy, I'm just going to say, I had already achieved one of my 2012 resolution. which is i want to meet my beloved's family face to face and get to know them personally.

After work yesterday, dengan muka yang serba sememeh ni, qiqi dengan berani nya telah merantau dari KL all the way to Rawang to spend the night dekat rumah bakal mertua ku (eh?? mertua?? haha ~ =P).. honestly, perasaan qi mase tu bercampur baur macam rojak tak siap. Yelah kan, ni kali pertama kot saya overnight kat rumah orang, not to mention rumah orang tu ialah orang kesayangan saya..and juga merupakan kali pertama qiqi jumpa family sesiapa..which is ni first time jumpa family BF.. (family mmbe pun qi tak pernah jumpa, ni kan bf)..kecuts seyh!!!! XD

Habis je kerja haritu, qiqi terpaksa meredah hujan untuk ke KTM, di sana saya telah di himpit pipit macam ikan dalam tin sardin..OMJAYYY!! mesti berbau bacan nanti bila jumpa dorang..shame2!!

Yes, along the way, qiqi text2 dengan bakal akak ipar ku dan juga bakal suami ku... (mula syok sendiri pulak saya~)...and bakal akak ipar ku pun ade cakap, ni kali pertama bambam saya bawak perempuan datang rumah jumpa family..sebelum ni semua jumpa akak ja..macam seorang gegirl tu yang syok dengan bambam..dia tak dapat jumpa the whole family..cuma jumpa akak je...kira qiqi ni bertuah lah kan..and akak cakap, qi ni mesti someone really special for him..(awwww~terharu)

Tiba di stesen Rawang..qi menunggu lah bambam dengan penuh kesabaran (YES!! peluang ku untuk mewangikan diri kembali!)...bila bambam tiba, kitorang pun naik lah pengangkutan awam untuk ke rumah sebab abah dia tak dapat amek cuz tengah kusyuk join membe main badminton..haa..tak apa..lagipun time tu qiqi tengah dup dap dup dap..OMJAYYY!! takot takot!! What if they don't like me sobs sobs~
okay lah, just cut the story short.,korang pun buat pe nak tau details sangat kan? biar lah ia menjadi kenangan ku dengan mereka~ jadi bila sampai di sana..qiqi tersipu malu but qi cuba buat-2 berani..i tried my best to break the ice..which is , its not that hard, because his family is really friendly and welcoming.

at that night itself, family dia ajak qiqi pergi karnival komunity and makan dinner kat sana. (first time wo makan ngan family bambam~)..setiba akak dan suami nya kat rumah bakal mertua ku kitorang pun gerak lah sesama, the whole time qi dengan akak, get to know her better and rapat kan ikatan sillaturahim sesama dia, yelakan..before this kitorang started off on the wrong track thanks to someone yang kaki dengki~

Anyways, i was kind of shock that akak kecik sangat2 and she looks so fragile...yelahkan..mengikut statistic saya , saya ingat dye garangs and strong2..lanyak qiqi gerenti KO..but itu semua hilang lepas tengok dia face to face!! ugugugu...so cecomel!!!!

We had dinner that night with the whole family..honestly i felt like cam newly wed ja cuz cam one happy family at that time..dapat makan and borak-2..even time tu saya agak blur case...penat lah katakan..plus cam tak sangka semua ni berlaku. (banyak pulak cam cam ko qiqi..haaa..macam actually~)
ape motif bambam buat camtu?? O.O??? candid rupanya~
akak and her hubby~ untung lah..hahahaha!! sedonding uollsss!! sama2 blue kaler kan kan~
akak with me..dye kurus ow...leh tengok tangan dia and tangan qiqi yang momok ni...haa..qi agak pendek sikit because at that time i was wearing platform slippers...tak ada beza mana pun kitorang..
ahak!! jealous ke?? *wink ;) saya sayang ini budak manyak2 ow!

well, not much to talk about, just nak tengelamkan blog saya dengan something worth posting, yelah kan, ade orang tu terasa dengan setiap post saya, kata tak stalk..tapi hakikat ko tu cakap keling..stalk gak...haaa..orang tak petik nama pun leh terasa..nampak sangat dia yang buat..sape makan jelly dia la rasa manis nye..heee~

conclusi nya, in this 2days 1 night stay with his family was not enough for any of us, and dorang pun macam berat hati sebab qiqi nak balik. ape lagi qiqi kan, rasa macam tak nak balik ja.. we spend time mostly hanging out together, makan secara family, and the rest is history. I hope one day we can do this again..harap next time lagi lama lah kan..amin amin amin...

Bambam ajak raya bersama dia and his family this year, siap nak buat baju raya sedondindon..hohoho..dah lama qiqi tak sambut raya, harap this would be a memorable raya for me..Can't wait!! I'm starting to love the fact that my dreams are slowly coming true..i love them all.. Assalamualaikum~♥

Let's Share : People with no STANDARDS

2012-01-05T01:54:00.000-08:00

Hello Angels!

WOW!!! looking back at my blog views, it surprised me how it skyrocketed from 1925 to 2226 in just one day!! I guess, words of mouth from those kekataks masih belum mati lagi, yelahkan kalau tidak mengapa masih ade unsur-2 meroyan lagi betol ke tak salah??..but whatever hunny IDGAF...=)

Sekarang ni qiqi just nak blog about things that are basically informative instead of something personal. Example like mindlessly bashing on pathetic things and bashing on unworthy people (macam dulu suka target orang-2 tertentu siap letak gambar semua..budak-2 betol aku dulu)~ini hanya akan menambahkan dosa saya ja kan..besides, i want to change remember..and it's one of my resolution. so i have to keep on my own words..=D

Speaking of words, saya ingin berceloteh about people who doesn't keep or hold onto what they say. maybe korang tak sedar, but most people usually don't hold onto their words. People who eats what they say, i simple categorize them as people with no STANDARDS.

An example, there's this girl right. She pernah cakap, " owh, i don't like to date underage boys because i am a person with class and reputation"..but tup tup, tiba-2 nampak dia keluar dengan lelaki bawah umur sambil peluk-2 dan pegang tangan. nampak sangat tak pegang pada kata-2 kan..apelah.

And ade this girl la kan, kononya alim taik kucing..dia pernah bagi tahu sorang akak ni la kan..."owh, saya tak suka lah lelaki tu, dah lah laki tu bertindik, kaki perempuan, suka melepak dan macam-2 lah..saya couple dengan dia pun sebab nak jealous kan sorang boboy ni, tu pun saya couple dengan dia sebab terburu-2". so bila plan dia nak jealous kan boboy tu tak menjadi..dia break nan lelaki tu. ape punya minah alim lah aku cakap! buat lelaki macam spender murah kau. then..bila boboy tu couple dengan gegirl lain..tengok-2 dia couple balik dengan mamat tindik ni. siap perasan kononya lelaki tu sweet la, romantik tik tok semua..dia happy sakan, i love you i miss you blekkkkk!!! nak muntah pulak dengan minah gediks ni.. so yeah..last-2 pergi balik kat mamat ni..awat? kata haritu tak suka? haish..cuba lah pegang dengan kata-2 awak kan~ dulu tak suka tiba-2 sekarang boleh i love you forever and ever..cinta mati lah senang cakap!

And also another story, ade this girl bertudung kan...mengutuk seorang perempuan ni, dia cakap.."alah! perempuan ni baru start nak pakai tudung sebab nak cover-2 lah, nak pikat hati mak mertua lah, dia nak cover ni lah cover tu lah" tapi tengok-2 one day, perempuan tu sendiri yang cabutkan tudung dia sebab kan kononya sebelum ni dia pakai tudung sebab nak pikat hati bakal mak mertua dia jugak dulu..ayok!! kantoi sudeyhhh~

(ni semua an example saje okay, yang terasa tu maaf lah..memang sengaja pun..sape suruh buat?? *wink)

So anyway, short story, ape yang korang cakap korang menyindir mengutuk, memfitnah dan cakap saya suka ni saya tak suka ni, orang ni macam ni orang tu macam tu..last-2 dia jugak yang buat benda sama..ade STANDARDS tak??

Okay lah, susah jugak nak explain benda ni, but basically , benda ni refers to people who doesn't hold onto what they say or in a way, that person say something but in the same time he/she is doing that exact thing.

Like another example..justin bieber la katakan..dia pakai kasut supra , topi purple yang macam tempurung kura-2 tu and budak-2 mat rempits ni mengutuk dia OMJAYYY!!! HIS SO GAYYY!!!..but tup tup tup..last-2 rerempits ni semua pakai kasut supra dan topi turtle..haaa..APE LA KORANG! sekarang aku pulak cakap OMJAYYY!!! REREMPITS YOU ARE SO GAY!!!!!!

So people, an easy way to not be someone with no STANDARDS is to not do something that who knows, you might one day do the same. Don't hate or judge someone's look that maybe one day you might end up copying that person. don't eat your words. it shows that you are a person with no standards..orang yang tak berpegang pada kata. orang yang tak ada prinsip. bak kata budak-2 hotsetap ni..ko cakap keling dowh!!

Just one word hunny i would say to these kind of people. You guys need to get a lesson or two on "HOW TO NOT BE A PATHETIC PERSON WITH NO STANDARDS"

Let's Share : Jealousy is a virus

2012-01-03T16:14:00.000-08:00

Hye sweethearts!

Okay hari ini qiqi nak share dengan korang tentang JEALOUSY atau bak kata Maria Elena PHD (Perasaan Hasad Dengki).

Post ni qiqi tujukan khas untuk readers gegirl qiqi. Because , ramai dikalangan manusia yang kuat jealous and dengki ni adlah kaum hawa kita sendiri..betol kanss?? ahak!!

Okay girls, in this post i am going to share some insights on the whole drama and mambo jambo situation that relates to one feeling which is "JEALOUSY".

korang mesti pernah rasa jealous kan? tak kisah lah jealous yang kecil , sekecil bende remeh atau besar MAKAIH!!! Jealous dekat kawan, adik beradik, mahu pun dekat orang yang korang tak kenal personally such as, artis, people from facebook, myspace, twitter, your ex punya girlfriend, ex punya ex, ex punya scandle dan macam-2 lagi lah, betol ke tak salah?? ehek!!

Okay, bottom line , every girl had already experience jealousy before, kalau tak pernah tu saya tak tahu lah, robot kot korang nih~

Sebagai seorang gegirl yang hati senang terasa, terguris, sensitive mengalahkan bontot baby baru lahir ni,..sini qiqi nak list kan korang 5 contoh jealousy and dengki yang sering berlaku di dalam kehidupan kita, which is :-

1 : Dengki terhadap pasangan kita dan perempuan yang pernah bercinta, sedang bercinta dengan dia atau yang baru bercinta. his ex-2 girlfriend, or current girlfriend, or his future girlfriend. That also includes perempuan yang dia tengah syok with, masa couple dengan korang atau lepas dah putus dengan korang. whatever it is, bottom line, those girls who are involve in his life except his mother or blood related family members. (This usually happen to most girls, including me uoolsss!!)

2 : Dengki dari segi pergaulan, which is kononnya orang tu hot la katakan, famous amos and living the life of the rich and the famous rockstars! So korang pun jealous and dengki dengan dorang sebab dorang lagi popular dari korang.

3 : Dengki dari segi tidak senang hati melihat kegembiraan dan kelebihan orang lain.

4 : Dengki dari segi tidak puas hati kerana seseorang itu dapat apa yang kita mahukan. example macam its easy for them to get what they want but its darn hard for you.

5 : Dengki dari segi kekayaan atau kecantikan orang lain. (This is mostly about insecurities and tidak bersyukur atas apa Allah s.w.t telah kurniakan pada korang).

Dari perasaan dengki ni mulalah timbul perasaan yang busuk hati iaitu tidak suka, benci, meluat, and rasa diri itu dicabar. dan dari situ timbul perasaan tidak berpuas hati dekat orang tu. Lalu korang pun mulalah memfitnah, membuat cerita, menokok tambah kan benda yang actually tak ada motif pun. and pretend that you guys are the mangsa-2 keadaan.. And also pretend that kononnya korang tu happy and dah move on walhal. itu semua cuma teknik-2 korang untuk tipu diri sendiri and juga orang lain yang obviously tak menjadi.

Why do i say tak menjadi???

Sebabnya , secara tak sedar korang masih mengupdatekan diri korang (stalking) orang tu dari semasa ke semasa. And semua tentang orang tu korang stalk, tak kira lah dari segi gambar, video, blog, facebook, myspace bagai. Sometimes even mengstalk orang terdekat mereka just to get to know more about that person, betol??

Even if korang tak add orang tu or maybe korang block orang tu, but you guys would find another alternative way to stalk such as, mengunakan fb fake or fb orang lain. or even worst google baybeh!!! (dah macam artis pulak)

Dari segi perasaan pulak korang selalu rasa tak sedap hati kan, atau rasa bengang atau you guys feel like korang nak benda lebih dari orang tu. kenapakah? well..its because korang rasa macam dicabar, di perkecilkan. Lebih-2 lagi perasaan ni membuak-2 when korang baru lihat benda baru pasal orang tu. And this feeling will go on and on.and would always keep repeating itself. so kepala sakit, hati pun panas je kan?

And that's when korang start membandingkan diri korang dengan orang tu. Dan mulalah korang nak upkan diri korang and mengubah diri korang mengikut orang itu..kira copycat la. Tak kira lah orang tu lebih bagus atau sebaliknya. korang tak akan perasan ni, because to you, you feel like your changing for yourself, because you want too, but in the matter of fact your lying to yourself. your trying to be what he/she is. in this situation there's only two outcome, which is either, you will grow out of it and realized that its better to be who you are (sometimes in this outcome..you would actually evolve to something better than before) or..you would keep on lying to yourself and being that person's fake a.k.a CLONE!!

To relate about myself in this post, before this i've been through this situation before many times, and i know what is the outcome..qiqi selalu ambik my feeling of jealousy into a positive manner..which is i use it to correct what i feel and think that needs correction. I improve myself. to tell you the truth, before this qiqi terok gila..but after a few heartbreaks, a hand full of bumpy roads, a thunderstorm of tears, i came to my sense and work myself up..and it brought me to where i am today. so that is something good right? and that's also why i can relate to those people who act pathetic, because once before, a long time ago, i was like them.. but now i have grown. i am more matured and can handle my feelings, and i know what is the end result when i do something.

Anyways, here's another story, there's this girl right, in a way, she hates me for no reason..maybe because she can't get the guy she likes/love..which obviously the guy is mine. =)

therefor she starts hating everyone, and making up stories about us. so that she feels that she is aww so darn great! but in the true matter of facts,she is being insecure, she is lying to herself and the people around her, pretending everything is okay, and that she is strong and have already move on with her life..which i certainly doubt it. You see people..this is a true example..people get jealous so they make up stories, spilling out all the negativity about that person to others just to cover up her feelings just so she can make herself happy even though deep in her heart she's not. then she pretend that things are okay and that she has already move on by making up fake fairy tales as if she is living an awesome life without that person. she is freaking happy..but who knows right..in her free time..she goes around stalking that person..ingat? updatekan diri dari semasa ke semasa...look..that just shows that she is not 100% moving on...she is trying to make the other person feel intimidated and making them think that she is wayyyyyy better now. but honestly, for a person who has been through this..it just make me laugh. all i can say is PATHETIC!! and i pity her stupidity.but well..she won't learn until she learn the hard way..the core of all of this..she needs to go through it to be able to master the art of jealousy. saya bukan batak pro or whatever ye kengkawan..i'm just saying...what i predict everytime comes out 100% true. so i rest my case here. you can pretend all you want but you can't fool me.

Ok lah, just till here..so girls..as you can see..there is always no use to be jealous..just sit back relax and handle it the ADULT way..not react like a childish spoiled kid. Jealousy can ruin friendship, can ruin relationships, can ruin everything..and most of all it can ruin your life and YOU!

till then ladies..toodles!! ^_^

(this was a remake of my previous post due to the lack of information and grammar mistakes)

Let's Share : People Change

2012-01-03T02:30:00.000-08:00

Hello Sweethearts!

Okay today qiqi nak share something dekat korang that i myself is struggling to overcome. its about "CHANGE".

Yes as you can see, i took a BIGGGGG step to CHANGE!!! why do i emphasize on this two words? its because it is a big change ..its like a 360 degrees change in my life, which obviously ada yang sokong and ada yang tidak and ada jugak so so ja. SO, kepada yang support my change, i would like to thanked you guys for it..especially to that special someone. (you know who you are *wink)

Then again, its a change...to name some is "that" (ala..fact qiqi dah bertudung lah) obviously...but that's not all the change im going through. i'm not going to spill out everything here though. besides no one really want's to know about me kan..haha..jadi tak guna nak berkarangan pasal diri saya,betol tak??

The main focus now is about the fact that, we can't change people, but you can change for someone. Yes, in fact im going through this with my family. nak tak nak, saya kena berubah untuk kebaikan family saya dan juga saya ..which is baik for me sebab saya dah malas nak dengar ummi saya bising hari-2..and my dad pun join..hahadoi!!! SO yeah, change..qiqi masih dalam dilema dan tak di nafikan..sayang bambam saya tu lah kene tempias kerunsingan saya..but i appreciate that he tries to help me and willing to hear me.. even though im repeating the same thing everyday.

So anyway..there's this phrase "you can't change someone,but yourself" dah macam benda sama pulak aku repeat..but yeah..it means a lot..if you want something to happen, you cant tell that person to shut it if he/she ni kuat potpet and stuff..if u nak something..you yourself must make it happen. therefor you have to accept the fact la kan.KITA KENE BERUBAH..kalau you don't like that something..try to counter attack that situation instead of waiting for things to fall on your lap which obviously won't happen. you can't tell a cat to bark can you?? you cant make salt taste like sugar. so..if you want something, it must come from you.

Macam qiqi sekarang ni, i'm having this big issue where my family keeps on calling me a failure and been nagging to me with harsh words like i won't succeed in life if i keep up with this attitude (which i don't know what kind of attitude..) bare in mind...my family is hard to pleased...and the list goes on and on..bottom line here..i'm not to their level of maturity, something they can be proud of..therefor...i'm a failure in their eyes, and a person with no value..i might be OWHHH so good to some parents ..but hunny, not mine...born in a family of perfectionist (especially my dad)...to be in the same level as him is far beyond my capability..yes! i'm just about 10% there..which goes to show i'm 90% left behind..buhuhuhu~

But whatever it is..this is not about me, (though i do relate some of my situation in this post)..but hye.its not the end of the world right..you can't make everybody to be proud of you, you can't make people like you..but in a way..you can at least make people who are important to you, who meant something to you to actually appreciate you, to look up on you and be proud of you..here..i state that the only people that i'm aiming to accept me is my family a.k.a my parents..and so later it goes down to those who are really important to me like my love and his family...you don't have to make everybody to like you..not the whole world..but its enough if those who are closer to you.

Who knows, the everyday sound of your mother nagging at you and you feel like shutting her up!..the answer is change! change yourself..i know its hard to get out from your usual old habits..but for the sake of clearing up those negativity atmosphere...why not you try to sacrifice and make a difference? start now..and when the time is right..i know you will realized that the hardship you go through would actually gain you something. =)

Owh btw, change for the good things..not bad yeah people...no one want's a bad apple.toodles!! ^_^v

(last2 aku cerita pasal diri aku jugak kan..heh!)

New Video Toutorial ♥

2012-01-01T02:21:00.000-08:00

New video on how i do my hijab. since many had been asking. I created this style accidentally, and since then, its been my favorite way of using my shawl. LOL..it took me like forever uploading this video (approximately 5hours) due to the crappy internet line. Anyways, hope you guys enjoy..and do leave some comments okay, toodles!! ~ ♥ ♥ :)

Last Year's News♥

2011-12-30T05:37:00.000-08:00

Hello sweethearts and ASSALAMUALAIKUM...♥

Okay, today is a short brief of the things happened to me on this few last weeks of 2011, which is my birthday and of course Christmas. Things happened to me a lot in 2011, and i am thankful that i've embrace it with a strong heart, no doubt i had a couple of bumps along the way..okay fine..A LOT!!!!

But ALHAMDULLILAH...i've gotten through it, some might have not been resolve yet, but i try to take a step at a time..

Okay, back to my story, i had celebrated my birthday, therefore the pictures in this post are all taken on my birthday and Christmas..Went on a date with bambam on Christmas day, which was a day after my birthday and a day before our anniversary. Haha!!

For what happened this year, it had thought me a thing or two about life, and about people. and how to control my emotions. This year too , i had taken a big step towards changing my life, and slowly im getting there..which is obviously a 360 degrees change of me BERHIJRAH to ALLAH's path...i know i had done a lot of mistakes here and there, and i'm sure i would do more..but i'll try to not do it as often as i did before. All and all, i would open up a new book and keep the rest of my past as memories and lessons. Amin

So then move on with 2012, A new year a new start, whats done in the past is left in the past...now its the present and the future that is important to me, i have high expectations in this year and i hope to see that i am able to achieve what i've been aiming to do whether its big or small..an ambition is an ambition..to slide in a few, i was planning to get a blackberry, and an Ipod classic and a laptop..(but with my own self earn money)...its my money right..those are a few small things i want to get for myself, so i have to work for it,thus its an aim, its a resolution in a way..others are of course, i want to start up my business which i think its quite hard looking back at the position im currently in..but i'll try my best to achieve it somehow...Insya'allah...and another thing is that.. I hope to keep my relationship with bambam as strong as we could..i want to celebrate my 1year anniversary with him, i've never been with someone more than a year before, so its like an achievement for me..which i pray that insya'allah our relationship would end up being satu ikatan yang sah..(amin)...owh, and i hope this year i get the chance to meet his family face to face..and maybe one day i bring my family to meet him ..i've never brought any guy to meet my family before..let alone someone special..so i hope this would happen in 2012...and lastly..i want to work hard in bringing myself closer to the beauty of islam..as i have been wondered off too far from my own religion. =)

Okay..i guess i had wrote a lot (intended to write a bit, but whatever~)..so now..you guys just enjoy the pictures below here..these are the presents i've gotten from my love ones..hehe~♥

A couple of pictures of me and my family..we are in a rush.. my mom had plans with my dad, my sister is working and my brother is going on a date with his girlfriend..and me with bambam (sorry if the picture is a tat bit blur)...i seriously need to get a new camera..sigh~
Such high maintenance..try to guess which belongs to who?? haha..!!
This was my birthday cake.. celebrated on Christmas instead since i had gone to sleep early on my birthday due to fatigue. Bambam ate about 85% of the cake..lol..such appetite!
A gift from my work place for my birthday..It's a new desert i tasted. Quite famous at my work place. If you know this desert, then you will know where i work for now.. =)
A gift from my little sister Maya a.k.a Mimi.. =)

These pictures above was taken when i was waiting for my little sister after my date with bambam.
A Necklace from my parents..previously i had another necklace but it was given to me on my graduation day..the "KEY" symbolize freedom when you reach 21 years old (not much freedom for me..heh!)
OPPSSS!!! haha!! this was a present from my little brother and my mom..yeah you heard right..my brother...who is actually 20years old..bertapa open minded nye family saya...a bra from Avon (tak pakai lagy..sayang pulak~)
Teddy bear from my bambam and his family..i can still smell umie's perfume. umie told me that ain chosed it...so maybe either bambam bought it or might be umie..(i have no right to ask though~)
And lastly, a present from Bambam, he bought for me (belanja okay) on our date..yes i was the one choosing it, but i had bambam's opinion too..i need him to involve in this things..kalau tak ajar, macam tak bermakna pulak kan...haaa...i want a "WE" not "JUST ME" in what ever we do...lol...=)

So i guess that's it, a brief post of what happened during the end of 2011..HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!♥♥

Plan Canceled.

2011-12-29T07:51:00.000-08:00

Hello Girls!! (and maybe some boys)

Anyhow, today i'm just going to update a random post, harini qi sengaja ponteng kerja semata-2 nak pergi interview kat tempat kerja lama..and thought of spending time with my bambam's family, but sadly our plans needed to be canceled as his brother in law is working, therefor no transport..so i guess..macam tak ada rezeki la kan..takpe, insya'allah lain kali dapat jumpa. so about the interview pulak..i think it went bad and somehow, for the second time..i don't feel like working there anymore..there is this few people who treated me like OWHMAYGAHHHH!!!! nak ja aku tikam tikam korang!! GRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dah-2 sabar qiqi*..so anyways..i don't want to work there (as if i ever get that chance to work, i seriously doubt that though)

So that is that, after done with the crappy interview, qiqi pun mula lah menapak ke masjid jamek, and off to sogo while waiting for my bambam..not much to do..bambam belanja qiqi lagi (even saya tau dia dah semakin kopak...man!! i feel bad~)...xbelanja mana pun..just the needs to let the time to go by..saya tak demanding okay kengkawan... we had lunch at KFC, and then decided to go for karaoke.. yelah, nak buat ape lagi kan? bukan ade ape-2 pun kat sana...haa...

Anyway, the picture below is what is left of bambam's glasses...i broke his glasses, accidentally sat on it. and broke one of its handle..but bambam got really pissed he actually threw the glasses on the floor (it scared the shit out of me!!) but the glasses did not break though...and..macam mana dia leh kecai sampai macam ni?? well..bambam crushed it himself..with just one hand..time tu serious qiqi dah kecut (bambam tak penah kecai barang depan saya~betol-2 marah ni!!)..okay fine..its actually my fault that saya terlepas cakap..and dia tertouching..and adding that saya tetiba terduduk atas cermin mata dia sampai patah..ermmm...sape tak ngamok kan....in the end..ended up with him pujuk qiqi sebab qiqi nagis....haa..cry babygirl betol ko qiqi~~! anyway..that's that, his scary when his mad (yelah..lelaki ngamok dah la badan besar dari saya!)....and and and..on that day..after pujuk memujuk..harini jugak perhubungan kita telah di upgrade~ woot woot!! oklah..merepek je kan saya..kan dah cakap dah merepek...(motif post sebab nak letak gambar cermin mata ja..hehehe!!)..okay..byebye!!!! =D

First date with him in Hijab ♥

2011-12-28T02:00:00.000-08:00

Hello Beautiful ~ ♥

Today i'm just going to post 1/3 of what had happened to me last week, for now, let me just talk about the date i went with my bambam on christmas day which was last sunday. It was a day after my birthday and was a day before our 4th month anniversary , and it was the first time i went on a day which is actually a Public Holiday. Because seriously, i've been wanting to go on dates on special occasions like this.

So yeah, this would be my first time going on a date with bambam, and saya pakai tudung (tetiba melayu keluar..sah2 aku malas tulis dalam BI)....so yeah, this was my second day bertudung and hari pertama bertudung buat date kitorang, yang the best part was, he said i look cute! and he loves me more...awwwww~#terasake? ;)

okay, mengelabah pulak saya kan..but yes, compliment tu lah yang saya nanti-2 kan uollsss!! plus dye kata cre saya pakai tudung nampak swag sangat2 (padahal saya main lilit ja)....yang cannot go tu adelah, ade-2 mata2 memandang and ramai manusia spesies sama nan bambam puji saya...muka bambam toya je..hoho..tah dye dengar ke tak...ade cakap saya macam minah arab, ade cakap cantik , ade cakap WOOOWWW!!!! (hamek kau!!) okay2..sya bukan mau bangga or bataks okay kengkawan..saya cuma menceritakan apa yang terjadi sahaja, berani betul dorang buat macam tu, padahal ade je jantan tepi qiq, its not like im walking alone right..haa...

Anyways, these are the pictures i took with my bambam, there's more pictures that are related on that day and my birthday, but i'll post it some other time aite? haaa..dekat sini you can see how i use my shawl, seriously this is my first time dan saya tak de copycat sape2..saya ingat hana tajima, bila search balik, rupanya bukan...cara dia pakai lain dari qiqi..maybe 20% nak sama...but seriously if you look carefully its different.. (semua tudung pun camtu jugak kan? sama tapi lain)
Then again..this is not about style or kejar hot or bataks or whatever or or or...saya pakai ikhlas and yes i do feel like styling it a bit, sape tak nak nampak cantik kan? lebih2 lagi depan orang kita sayang? and plus, dari dulu senjak saya free hair i always in love with unique fashion, and i like to be me..so as i had promised..im being me in a good way...atleast qiqi dah tak mendedah terdedah dan di dedah..betul ke tak salah?? heheheh..okay lah..till here, get jelly people with my pictures..specially YOU!! YEAH YOU!! I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU GIRL!!! YEAHHHH!!! okay byebye ^_^v

Once upon a time♥

2011-12-18T16:50:00.000-08:00

(saya garang..grrrrr!!!!!)

Selamat pagi dan salam sejahtera!

Harini qiqi akan post mostly dalam bahasa melayu rojak (yelahkan, takut makhluk tu tak paham english dan BAHASA MALAYSIA..kuikuiku)..so..ni haa nak habak..adalah kan sekor hamba allah ni..tah kenapa depa dok meroyan ngan aku tak tentu pasal.

Story starts here, semenjak aku ngan bf aku berdeclare, minah sekor ni xpuas hati entah kenapa, dari aku tak kenal dia terus nak amek tau pasal dia..sebab apakah? sebab minah ni , in a way ade kene mengene dalam hidup aku dan telah membuat aku berselisihan paham ngan akak bf aku sampai akak dia shoot aku tanpa sebab dan jesteru telah membabitkan mak dia and adik dia sekali..aku pelik..apasal aku pulak kena padahal aku tak buat apa2 salah..yelahkan..tak kan salah kalau aku bersama bf aku? salah ka?? bukan aku ngacau hidup orang lain. gatal pepek nan jantan lain. haa..rupa2nya..makhluk seekor ni dah racun otak akak dia sampai akak dia sanggup membelakangi adek lelaki dia sendiri dan telah memblock perempuan2 yang cuba mendekati adik dia..yelakan..makhluk ni nak sangat bf aku ni..tah ape dia dok bomoh kat depa pun aku tak tau. so then, hari ke hari bulan ke bulan, lastly pecah tembelang secrete plan makhluk ni haa, aku rasa dia tak puas hati dan tak percaya yang aku dan bf aku couple dah nak sampai 4bulan..lama tu..because before this ramai perempuan yang otw nak cple nan bf aku suma kecundang xsampai seminggu angkara perbuatan makhluk ni..memang hebat makhluk ni kan..hoho

So yeah, ade sesuatu ketika dahulu dalam perhubungan aku ngan bf aku baru sampai sebulan lebeh, dia nasihat aku supaya jangan obvious sangat menunjuk kitorang couple..yelahkan nak bergambar pun salah..ofcourse sebagai gf aku marah..but whatever..aku tau sebab nya kenapa..sebab, kalau aku snap gambar post bagai..makhluk ni akan stalk aku..kalau tak dia..anjing2 dia rangkap kaum kerabat dia akan stalk aku dan meroger2 dia...haa...even sampai sekarang dia buat benda sama, (macam aku tak tahu dowh)...minah ni dan kuncu2 askar kekatak dia mengstalk fb aku serta blog aku, kalau tak awat hang tau benda2 aku tulis..adek angkat hang yang macam lakhnat tu add aku..ingat aku tak tau? kan padan kena block..nak add orang takut..pakai manusia bertudung tapi perangai kalah minah jual pantat kat chow kit. sama-2 meroyan..yelah..memang sesuai kau jadi akak dia..perangai 2x5 ja..huhu.

So anyways, salah satu kuncu kekatak ni aku baru dapat tau cerita dia pun dulu ade syok sama bf aku, tapi kesian tak dapat..jadi dia pun masuk dalam group kekatak queen ni..baru geng-2..but whatever. so yeah, back to the stroy..lepas makhluk ni dan kuncu kekatak dia tak puas hati dengan kadaan sekeliling..mula la mereka orang meroyan uollss! mak habak ni, mereka buat geng-2 meroyan sampai membabitkan family bf aku, haa..di situ lah baru bermula cerita happy not so happy ending aku ni.. lepas family bf aku dapat tahu perangai sebenar kekatak queen ni..mereka pun terus anti sama kekatak kingdom tu (ewah..dah buat story buku kanak2 pulak aku)...dan family bf aku pun memintak maaf zahir dan batin dengan aku...alhamdullilah..akhirnya doa serta kesabaran aku terjawab juga..and now aku happy dengan family serta bf aku.

BUTTTTTT!!!! disebabkan tu juga..mula kekatak queen ni tak puas hati , so dia terus dan terus meroyan sampai tah ape dia merepek merepot..sampai berdelete berbelock dan macam2 ber ber...huhu..so yeah..di sebabkan tu juga, aku dok dengar banyak cerita yang mak aih! meluat aku dengar dowh~ so...aku pun pikir, why not i see it for myself la kan how great this kekatak queen is? aku pun dengan senang lenang add dia pakai salah seorang kenalan rapat aku..tapi kekatak queen ni pandai rupanya dapat mendetact yang fb aku pakai tu stalker..jadi dia tak approve..aku buat benda tu masa ahad lepas..masa aku tengah offday. lama jugak aku menungu, peliks jugak kan..online tapi tak approve..sokay, takpe aku tak kisah..aku pun remove la friend request aku kat dia...andddd pada suatu haritu, aku tercetus sebuah idea..aku meminta kebenaran mutual friends beliau yang aku kenal, and aku pun mula sesi meneludup masuk kekatak kingdom beliau..OWMAKAIH!!!!! berbisa betul mulut kekatak queen dan anak2 katak dia.. (best pulak pangil dorang katak..rebbeerrtt!!wakakak!!)

aku punya baca membaca kusyuk mengusyuk, haa..memang tak dinafikan mereka pakar dalam bab kutuk mengutuk royan meroyan gossip mengossip...tapi geng2 sume muka sama ja yang menepek kat wall dia tuh. and masa aku sebok dok scroll..ade lah tertulis satu status ni mendoggie pasal aku..yes, xdinafikan pasal aku add dia..ewah..kemain agy ayat dia..so cuweet! yang best kekatak dia pun join skali menambah dosa...kutuk aku pakai tudung sebab nak amek hati mak metua? haha..kekatak kekatak sekalian..itu hanya gambar semata mata sayangs...aku sekarang belum bertudung lagy..coming soon yaw nigas!! ..awat nak memfitnah bagai pasal aku? and pasal rambut aku kekuning?? ewah ewah..tak da motif rasanya nak mgutuk rambut aku kuning ke tak..mana ko tau rmbut aku kuning? ade kau nampak ke cik kataks sekalian?? tak ade kan, tak penah face to face ngan aku pun kan..haa..so please mind your words little missy, adek-2 boleh blaja menjaga adab korang tak? awat? mak bapak korang tak aja ka?? huh! korang tau tak yang korang memfitnah tu lagy terok dosa dia dari membunuh orang? haa..and awat kene mengene nak ngutuk "mak mertua aku" dapat menantu sales gegirl?? awat? ko tu dah maju sangat ka? baru stakat baru masok college kerajaan jangan dok nak bajet blajak overseas..aku kerja sebab aku tak nak depend dekat mak bapak aku bukan cam korang buat habiz duit mak bapak ja..korang tak tahu aku idop semua self maintenance okay...so you have no right to have a say on what i do for a living..ingat aku takleh dapat kerja bagus ka? heh..hello gegirl..bukan aku takleh..cuma aku belum sedia nak masuk dalam dunia dewasa kerja opiz memanjang..aku masih nak enjoy cari pengalaman. so yeah..enough with my work.

now, about my hair..FYI, its black for god sake! yang korang bengap sangat kata rambut aku kuning kenapa? korang terlebih bendul ka? nak aku hantak korang buat eye checkup? haa..rambut tu rambut palsu aku guna sebab aku dulu banyak simpan rambut palsu..aku dulu cosplayer..kalau korang nak cari point kenapa aku kumpul rambut palsu and aku tak pakai rambut sendiri dah terang2 korang bodoh tahap masya'allah! tak dapat aku nak sebut..go search about cosplay..go open up your eyes and see the world, jangan dok jadi katak bawah tempurung. be universal bukan typical kampung malays yang kolots. boleh sayangs? =)

so di sini aku malas nak kecoh sangat, cuma nak clearkan otak korang yang terlebih sempit tu.. korang tak payah lah nak buat dosa banyak2 dengan kerja2 remeh yang korang buat nih..cik kekatak queen, ko tu ngah blajak..jangan dok gatal pepek nak kawin sangat..blaja dulu...umur baru setahun jagung ada hati nak jadi mak orang.. haish..and about me bertudung like i said before, tak da sebab aku nak pakai tudung sebab jantan a.k.a bf aku dan sebab nak amek hati mak mertua aku or sapa2 okay..aku buat sebab niat ikhlas aku..sebab aku tau lambat laun aku akan pakai jugak..so why not i start now..yang kau tak puas hati apehal? ko cakap aku..ko tu tak tengok pulak diri sendiri..tak cermin diri..ko mentang2 tak dapat dia..sekarang ko nak free hair? mana maruah ko la perempuan? bukan kau ke yang pakai tudung sebab kan benda2 yang ko tuju kat aku tuh?? ko tak tengok?? mulut jangan sedap cakap..pikir dahulu..ko dah besar panjang..jaga tingkah laku kau..be an example to ur adek angkat and adek2 kandung kau, bukan mengutuks orang ja lebeh diri sendiri pun tak betul..again dear, you stalk me first, you send those baboons to dig into my personal life. and now your saying im the one who started all this? aku tak kan buat kalau kau tak buat dulu..aku dah penat mendiamkan diri..ko tu cubalah bawak2 to ur common sense sikit..now ko dah ade bf kan? awat nak gatal kat bf aku pulak? ko tak kesian kat bf ko ke hah perempuan?? dahlah..cukup lah ko nak cakap ape pun...aku tau lpas ko bace ni..lepas kuncu2 kekataks ko bace ni..mula lah sesi menganjing aku kat fb ko, fb adek angkat ko dan juga blog ko pasal aku. aku tak membabitkan orang lua in this matter..then why should u? lau ko tak puas hati dengan aku..then fine..satu hari nanti lau ade rezeki, aku face to face kat ko..cakap ape ko tak puas..act like an adult..not like a kid..boleh? ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

PS : jika aku terkasar bahasa aku nak mintak maaf, im not perfect, and so are you. setiap manusia buat kesalahan. setiap manusia ade limit kesabaran. jangan sebabkan kepentingan dan kepuasan diri sendiri, korang nak hancurkan hidup orang lain. tak ada gunanya..move on with your life and your love..and i would do the same. you have my word. and if you ever post anything to make a comeback on my words i just posted here. then i guess..ur not really moving on..awak masih berpegang pada masa lampau awak..aku post benda alah ni as a last post from me. and i wont disturb u nore your kuncu kekataks..so i hope u do the same too..if not..maaflah...your just being a selfish immature kid..tak nak kan macam tu? ;)

owh bout orang baca blog aku..ko tengok sendiri counter kat tepi ni haa..benda alah tu aku letak xsampai seminggu..tengok dah cecah seribuseratus lebih kan?? nampak orang baca? nampak orang stalk? followers/stalkers aku ramai..jadi dun worry about my blog traffic..aku tau aku punya pembaca lagy ramai dari kau =)

toodles~

Going to be OFFICIAL ♥

2011-12-18T03:46:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum Sweethearts♥

Okay, since today is my offday.Like..yeaaaahhh!! i'm getting offdays every sunday..woot woot! #awat hyper sangat minah ni.

Sooo...I was thinking to clean my room..but sadly, i failed doing so....yes, saya ni agak pemalas..harap planning ja lebih, buat nya tak...maaf kepada bakal suami ku..bakal isteri mu ni lazy bumbum..hohoho!

Besides that i also decided to camwhore myself, which i obviously did , haaa...yang ni saya rajin lebih. Jadi here is a picture of me! so whatcha think?? lawa tak? comel tak? hotsetap tak?? huhuheee...okay fine..actually i was trying out some satin shawls, the ones i bought with my bambam sewaktu saya masih mengangur haritu...and this is one of it..maaf the picture is a tat bit blur..tangan saya ni xleh kalau tak gegar...haaa..kecik2 tak makan sayur..besar2 pun tak makan sayur..tu la tak kuat~!

Yes, buku2 tu adalah koleksi manga/ comic jepun yang saya kumpul senjak dajah 6 lagy tau..haaa~tu tak kira lagy yang bawah katil tuh...Anyways, there is more pictures i took, but i want it to be a surprise because, yelahkan..at least nanti post2 ade gambar saya, bukan gambar merepek saya curik kat google..betol ka tak salah? haa..some of the pictures i've already uploaded in my facebook account..tu pun tak semua..nak bagi surprise kat FOLLOWERS saya ni haa.. kang nanti bosan pulak diorang.

Kepada pro-2 diluar sana yang memang pro berlilitan ni, jangan lah ketawakan saya, saya ni budak baru belajar..nak pakai inner pun masih terkial-2 lagy..haa..but whatever it is, practice makes perfect right, jadi tak mustahil later in the future i would be good at it, and who knows i might finally come out with my own style..heee~ but of course i do this because of my religion and because of god, bukan nak ikot trend or what so ever..kita ni makin tua bukan makin muda..dunia pun makin nak KO...haa...jadi saya cuba mengambil langkah dari tak berlangkah langsung..kannnnsss sayangsss???

Ahh!! sebelum saya terlupa, i would officially be covering myself soon...there's a few people who knows when is that..but to the others, just wait yeah..tak lama mana pun...^_^v

Peace upon you @ ASSALAMUALAIKUM ♥

2011-12-15T18:43:00.000-08:00

Hello and welcome beautiful♥

Today i would like to post about things that has been going on in my life for the past one week okay?? So now, just want to state that lately i seldom online since i've started working at a new place last Tuesday..therefor you wont be seeing me much. besides, no use of updating everyday as i want to keep my so called SPECIAL FOLLOWERS excited, no? =)

Now, i just want to say that how happy i am as my prayers and patients has been finally answered.
Yes, currently i've gotten a 2nd chance to get to know my bambam's family after a tat bit of misunderstanding that had lead us to a very bumpy road. But thankfully, things has gotten better for us. And now, we are slowly forming a bond among us. And plus, i can't really explain how happy i am as my relationship with him is getting better and better everyday. I can really see now , how deep his feelings is towards me. hahah! yay me!! XD

A Journey♥

2011-12-10T21:31:00.000-08:00

Hello sweetpeas!!♥

Today is a really ho-hum Sunday, not much to do, i haven't been figuring out what i am about to do yet. well, i did, but it just never seem to have a conclusion. So yeah, still mingling with myself, figuring how to solve things that seems impossible to be solve. I've been landing my ass on this chair about 5hours now. Haven't really had anything for breakfast or lunch..maybe i won't i guess, not in the mood to eat you see. Lately i've been thinking of starving myself till i get the dream weight i wanted (aside my thick bones of course)..currently i weight around 48kg (150cm)..so you could say i'm on the short chubby side. Since i'm short, i decided to be thin instead of chubby..so yeah..maybe i'll try to lose till i am below 45kg. i was thinking 40kg but i guess i would look anorexic then. People say i am fit, some say i am chubby (which is to me is equivalent to fat)..i want to be slim..yeah, having a younger sister with a body like a model doesn't sugarcoat the true facts that i kind of appear like a baby hypo...so that's that.

After posting this. I'm off to do what i have intended since like forever..Yup! Job hunting..looking for work still, but sadly nothing catches my interest, but then, i can't just sit around with an empty pocket by the end of the month right? i have to contribute to the family every month..therefor like it or not, i still have to work. =)

Lastly, just uploaded a picture of my bambam, we decided to make sign name's , i haven't been doing this for the past 3years..last was when i'm still active on myspace..haha!! this is a picture he sent me, i'm still waiting for the other's though...Anyway, what is even cuter is that the picture of a rabbit on it..drawn by his little sister..adorable,kinda look like something popped out from Happy three friends..haha!!♥ XD

I Love Those Pest ♥

2011-12-10T05:29:00.000-08:00

Hello baby!! ♥

I have great news people!! (okay, maybe to me but not to some of you).
Well, lately there have been people reporting to me about people stalking my blog. Yes, if not so then how can news spread so fast no?? Lol..and how does people (who obviously doesn't follow me) would know what i have posted up in less than a few hours? Okay, good news spreads fast ( good in a way like gossips).

So then i decided to follow my Bambam's advice to try (for fun)..to place blog view counter on my blog. And so i did, left it for a day (which was less than 24hours)...and to my surprise there was like 100++ views! OMG!!!! who the hack is stalking?? so yeah..
during that time bambam was just next to me. and he himself was quite amazed by the number of views i had.

So then again, i left it for another time..and during the following day it skyrocketed to 200++views (so that means another 100++ views in a day)...i'm figuring those new form of haters i'm currently having. who are they?? well, lets just say they are those people who somehow can't digest the fact that a person they like or have an interest on or whatever it is, is already taken. Who is that person? well...that person is someone who is really really REALLLYYY SPECIAL to me =)

I'm lazy to point fingers as this post is actually a general post and the main point i wanted to post this was because i wanted to upload a few pictures i took this afternoon, so why not i just slide a few stories that i feel fit and its appropriate since there would obviously be people reading it right?

So anyway, enough with that, to those people who just can't stop digging their way through my personal life, well, just keep doing what u want, i just hope soon you'll realized that your just wasting your time.
Anyways, these are a couple of pictures i uploaded, its a sign name i did for my bambam, i did two version of it, one with bertudung (i wanted this version) and the other one is with a wig (bambam wanted this)..he said why not do both, so i did..somehow you could see two version of me..haha! i wanted the picture of me bertudung to put as a collection in my album later on. hee
Anyhow, i guess this would be enough for those stalkers to talk about for now huh?? hope you guys have fun making free sins. Okay..off to bed now..need to wish my bambam good night..toodles!

Qiqi's Adventure ♥

2011-12-06T18:27:00.000-08:00

Hello Beautiful!!♥

Today i would like to post about the unexpected adventure i had yesterday. Why is it Unexpected?? well, because i decided this "last minute" as i was out of ideas where i should waste my time at.

So when i was on my way to send my little sister (and after i had gone for a few interviews) i decided to just hop on a train n take myself to somewhere i've never gone before. And since i don't know where to go, someone special just crossed my mind..and who else if its not my bambam..and what is interesting is that he lives far away from KL. Lucky me!! Haha, so in the end..I purchased a ticket to "Rawang" heee...and there i am on my way to his hometown.

But though i know that my bambam won't like my impulse decision which i told him i was heading his place . I knew he would get mad because of my "doing things without thinking" attitude, which i was not wrong. Because as i arrived there, i went walking on my own..That is what you get when a girl from the city is excited to see the world. And so the story begins when he text me and asked me where i was, and like always dengan selamba i said " jenjalan" haaa..

He got really mad and scolded me (i know he was worried if anything would had happen to me)....that was the first time i saw him REALLY MAD!!!! anyway, enough with that..it was my fault anyway. And on that day itself, that was his first time seeing me cry for real in front of him..buruk muka qiqi time tu. MALU!! (amek kau dah keluar bahasa melayu aku ni)..
Anyway...these are the pictures i took during my journey towards Rawang. there's a lot of trees and fruit trees like rambutan and stuff..haa..suka qiqi tengok! dah lama tak adventure..bile sampai sana, i felt really at home. And somehow i feel like making that place as an official dating spot for me and bambam. Not to forget , the stuff there are FREAKING CHEAP!!! like seriously cheap..i apparently spent on 2 pairs of shoes for only rm30, and i bought a blusher that only cost rm13, which a former workmate of mine bought for rm60 at masjid india..haha!! lucky day i guess.

the train was kind of empty..i liked it, its peaceful not like when you have to take the public transport to KL..the only crowded time is from KLsentral towards sunway.huhu~

Owh!! this was the Kilang minyak, haha! when the train passes this area, i was like WOWWW!! (aku rasa macam aku dalam game Final Fantasy) the buildings was so HUGE! hehe..

this was the building that caught my eyes when the train stopped at Rawang Station..I dont know what it was, Masjid?? I'm not sure..huhu
At last me and dady got the chance to eat ice cream (or frozen yogurt) together..we've been wanting and intending to do this on our 3rd date but we had this on our 8th i think?? haha! yeah, yesterday was our 8th. mak aih! xleh mengira dah qiqi ni...this week itself i met him the most..i think it was about 3 to 4 times already~ and the more i spend time with him the more i fall for him XD
Owh by the way when we got home we celebrated my little sister's birthday ( hugo boss is at the back there) aww..now i feel like having cake again..haaa~
My little sister turned 16 yesterday, and i'm about to celebrate my birthday soon. i was thinking to celebrate it with bambam...insya'allah~
Anyways, sorry for the short post towards the bottom, i was busy hearing songs and had run out of ideas on what to write..haha! plus i am not going to spill everything out, let memories be mine and mine only right? anyway..hope you guys have a good day..toodles!

Let's Share 3 ♥

2011-12-04T16:51:00.000-08:00

Sex Before Marraige & Pregnancy

Hello there reader's!!

Okay today i would like to post something that i thought of randomly just awhile ago.
Lately i've been hearing stories of girls getting pregnant due to sex before marriage. Like always i don't just blame the guy nor just the girl, but i blame both of them instead.

It's obvious what they had done is against their religion and their believes, and it is for sure a taboo in most cultures. Okay, i got the drill when they say its love not lust, but hello...if just love won't lead u into doing things like this, its maybe 30% love and the balance are all lust (and sometimes they might not even have "love")

I've met guys who sleeps around with girls just for the sake of lust, and i know the girl who fall for this sweet talker is stupid because she follows her feeling of lust more than using her brains. I've been in that situation and i know how the brain works. Even how hard u try to say "NO" but somehow, you just can't beat nor ignore the feeling of lust. It's always there, it's either u take it and bare the risk if something bad might happen or you could just walk away. And i know it's hard, it's like telling yourself to hold your breath until u choke to death.

Some of these guys take responsibilities in their actions, and i respect that because that is what you should do after you have slept with someone's daughter and got her pregnant. But yes, i do recall guys who knows if the girl is pregnant he would just disappear into thin air, or maybe after the first time (or the second) he would just walk off without even feeling guilty.

This sort of situation would either turn the girl into someone who is sexually active, or she could have turn paranoid or worst of course "pregnancy" with or without the guy. So now, what would you say about sex? Do you do it because of lust or because of love?

I've known a friend who had a child and the guy took advantage of her, even if at first that guy decided to take responsibility (which i doubt that)..but in the end she is left alone with a kid, lucky she have her family and friends by her side and i know it means a lot to her that they are there for her (no thanks to that boyfriend of hers). And i also know a girl who love to sleep with her boyfriend and yes they are happily in love and lust connects them even closer. But when they found out that she might be pregnant, even if the guy is taking responsibility (brava!) but what they had decided which i know is the best considering the situation they are in, but a part of me felt sorry for the baby that she is carrying. The baby had to face all of this before he/she can even step foot onto this world. Being judge without having to say anything. All because of the sins his/her parents did.

Another story is that i've heard one of my exes got her girlfriend pregnant (well, the girl is obviously a slut, and a drama queen) im not sure if the girl is trying to pull a scene but what's for sure is she is about 3-4months pregnant, when it involves parents than i guess it's true right? So yeah, another thing is that my ex don't know if that baby is his or some other guy she has slept with (that's why i call her a slut)...well, this girl had ruin my life and stole my bf away (who is now my ex), bare in mine she dates and sleeps around with guys even though she is in a relationship with my ex. stupid right? my ex dump me for a girl like that (serves him right! ) anyways, this girl..i blame this girl and my ex, serves the girl, because she had ruin many relationships and she likes to cheat on guys and to my ex, who loves to ruin peoples children. so yeah, at this kind of situation all i can do is smile. hah!! =)

In a way i am blessed to have a boyfriend who doesn't take advantage on me even how much i've tried to seduce him. We've never gone to that extent yet, and i am happy. Because every time when i can't think straight and i feel like wanting to have sex (which happens a lot) we always ended up talking about it. And like always he would say that "that" would come when the time is right in a right way, and its because both of us want it and its because of love and not lust. Even how annoyed i get when he always cut me off, deep in me i know he is doing his part and he wants me to do mine. And by the end of our conversation i always ended up smiling. the feeling of being love like that is something i've always been wanting. I'll wait for that time to come, and i pray to god that he would give me strength to change from what i've done in the past to a better person in the future and i hope that i won't fall and repeat the same mistakes that i did in my past again. Anyways, enough about me.
So now, what do u think? should you have sex before marriage or after? Are you and your partner ready to take responsibility in your actions? Do you think its appropriate to do it now? The answer is all in your hands. To the girls, save yourself for the right guy, and if you have fallen many times by those jerks out there, i just hope and pray you would find the right guy and remember don't let go of him for someone stupid who obviously dump u after he had gotten what he wants. it's not worth it. you are worth much more than a piece of meat at the pasar malam. okay..toodles!

Ps : i've come to realized that in this post i had done a few typo and grammar error (i'm too lazy to fix it)...anyway..i was writting this in a hurry because i'm late for my date with my bambam XD

Vampire Craze♥

2011-12-03T21:48:00.000-08:00

Hello sweethearts!

It's been awhile, anyway, today i would like to post about something that obviously i adore/like/love/addicted and more ///////........haha...so yeah..if u think twilight..then the answer is no...the right answer would be "vampires"...yes i'm a self-confessed vampire addict since i don't know when, so don't ask. Okay, now u can say that i'm about to post something regarding Twilight (since u obviously know that from the pictures i have uploaded) duhhh~

Well, like all vampire addicts out there, whenever u have the opportunity to get involve or be with things regarding vampires, then surely you people would know how i'm currently feeling (the adrenalin rush through my veins!!) right? Yes, most people would just say Twilight is lame yada yada, Edward is such a pussy..and Bella is such an emo freak. okay well, i'm against all of that, why can't you people just watch the movie peacefully? Go damn with all the negative thoughts and comments. I'm not saying i support twilight, or twilight made me in loveeeee with vampires, heck i love vampires since twilight even existed.

Okay back to the story before i wonder off from the main topic. I've watched all the twilight's series except for twilight saga, which i think is before the eclipse. Anyways, looking at Edward (not robert)...i feel..OWHMAGAWD!!!! I WANT TO BE A VAMPIRE AND LOOK INTO THAT BEAUTIFUL EYES!!! yes i am literally mesmerized by those eyes and the thought of being with a vampire. (no wonder no vampire wants to get to know me, i bet if they do, they would ended up dead by me choking them with my bear hug)..

So yeah, i enjoyed the movie a lot (minus the fact that my friends was making a lot of noise and i cant FOCUS!!)..anyways, all and all it was not disappointing at all. Planned to watch it with my bambam, but we didn't get the chance since on our date the cinema was packed. and we ended up talking like always instead and on our previous date he accompanied me with my material hunting instead of a real date, heh!

Btw, in all of the scenes, the main focus that i love about twilight eclipse is the wedding ceremony and the fact Bella is pregnant with Edward's child (a vampire baby yaww!!)..and of course at the end after Bella died, she changed into a vampire..HAH! HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! (okay i'm starting to get really annoying now)..stop qiqi stop.
Anyway, talking about the wedding, i've been always wanting to get married and have a garden wedding as my main event, of course nikah is in a masjid, but the persandingan, i would want it to be a garden theme wedding, not in a hall, not at anybody's house (maybe at my husband house, dependong on the in law's choice) but for my part..A GARDEN WEDDING, an actual garden. End! yes, filled with flowers, people wearing white and i in my wedding dress. this is not because of twilight, but somehow when u watch the wedding scene you'll understand what kind of wedding i meant. Beautiful isn't it? Okay qiqi, your not getting married now. Haha!! toodles!

1st December 2011

2011-12-01T18:18:00.000-08:00

(this picture is not mine, its from google)

Hello sunshine!

Yesterday was somewhat a memorable day for me as it was the first day i quit(tu pun kalau boleh consider quiting) my job and went material hunting for my blogshop..

Not to mention qiqi tengah demam selsema ewwwwww~

so nak tak nak..had made a white lie to my parents (sorry :<) and went shopping,(currently still with my white lie)..but today i'm updating my blog..later i do what i think of doing..feeling mixed up..i need to get a part time job as to keep my white lie safe and thus contributing like always to the house and family. But macam mana nak contribute kalau ko tak kerja qiqi..ermm..ape2 lah...hati qiqi ni dupdapdup ja 2 3 hari ni..ugugugu~

Anyways, back to what happen that day, well, firstly early in the morning i sent my little sister to work as it was her first day..than headed to masjid india to search for materials while waiting for my bambam hilmy...huhu..when he came he was pissed and got agitated as i had told him the wrong road..okay fine..saya tak tahu masjid india or jalan tar or whatever is...harap stay KL, tapi nak menapak memang jarang la..jadi bambam pun ngamok sb dye terpaksa berjalan jauh dengan keadaan yang tak berapa nak sehat tu..im sorry dady X'(

(qiqi serams bile tengok dady marah)...pastu three!! haha! no la..pas dia dah okay..mula lak ayat pedas but berfakta dia keluar...okay...i know its my fault for not planning things well..huuu..but ape-2 pun we made peace after having our drinks together.

Lepas dah cool off minum-2, dady dan saya pun menapak ke nagoya..qiqi borong kain satin bebanyak..hee..cian dady kene angkat berat2 barang tu semua..sayang dia! tengok dia, qiqi tau dia bukan jenis suka duduk satu tempat lama-2..but dia sabar demi qiqi..~so sweeettt!!!

after dah borong memborong, kitorang pun meronda2 cari makan..last-2 tak ada pilihan..kitorang decided to eat at KFC at petama complex (where obviously saya tersasul sebut permata complex...terbahak guling mamat tuh!!)

okay...after that for the first time ktorang melalaks terlolong selama 3jam..memang best sebab kitorang melalaks sambil tungang terbalik..heee...i felt happy that bambam saya sudi teman saya, haaaa....really had a great time with him even though i had to through hardship..it means a lot to me~

Anyway, today im stuck at the cc, tak tahu nak buat ape, mesin jahit tak ada...others? ermm..wanna find a part time job?? huu..entah lah..nak kerja ape pulak ea?

3rd Month Anniversary ♥

2011-11-26T17:39:00.000-08:00

Hello sweethearts♥

On the 26/11/2011 was a wonderful day for me, as it was our 3rd month anniversary together. Okay-2 fine, baru 3bulan..but still saya syukur..bukan senang tau nak couple selama 3bulan ni, and i don't deny, we have been through a lot of ups and downs and well, mostly downs (i guess that's the reason why we are still strong).

In this relationship , i've learned a lot about being patience and not to follow my feelings without thinking. And yes i also have learn how to control my feelings of jealousy and all of that. tak dinafikan qiqi memang kuat jealous and i'm still am, yelahkan..dia tu bukan main ramai peminat perempuan. haha! ape2 jelah..
Anyway, back to the story, on that day, i decided to skip work (oppsy!), just because i wanted to spend my 3rd month anniversary (obviously to celebrate sebab saya tak penah buat celebrate2 ni)..but it turned out bad as we can't really do anything, no movies (sebab sesak), we just spent our time talking with each other, eat, walk and more eat and walk. not including saya sengugut pada hari itu as it was my first day..suckish kan~X'(
Anyways, this Saturday i would be going out with him again, since he would be around KL..not sure what we are going to do there, but no worries. there's always something kan. Mesti terkejutkan kenapa tetiba qiqi upload gambar kita bersama? well, he changed a little bit and now he allow me to upload our pictures together. okay lah tu dari dulu yang tak dapat apa2 kan. like he said, bersabar ade lah ganjaranya. saya sabar lah ni~

Okay lah, potpetpot pun tak kemana, saje upload pics as it was demanded by my bffs andi and amy..plus stating that we have been 3months. tu je..harap-2 leh sampai bertahun-2 and so on kan..amin~ ok lah..toodles people ^_^

A risk taker, a step closer, cross fingers.=)

2011-11-23T05:05:00.000-08:00

Hye earthlings! how's your day? best tak hari ni? sudah makan? sudah puas online?

haaa..the picture above have nothing to do with this post, saje suka suki mengupload, sebab tak nak post ni nampak kekosongan.

Okay, today supposed to be my off day, and ofcause like every offdays, qiqi akan post up new things. but today i decided not too. Kenapa? well, i'm busy doing something else..okay okay fine. busy meng-edit blog...hehehe..fine fine..bukan saya edit..but my lil sister yang editkan..for now, my 2nd blog dah siap di edit..blog mana? itu nanti saya cerita okay? for now, i'm still in process of editing this blog too. Had to reward her since its really a complicated job..aku pun naik poneng tgok tah ape2 dia tekan. but anyways, i hope its going to look preeeettay yawww!

Gambar diatas merupakan gambar minggu lepas, sorry kalau cermin tandas saya kotor..and saya..muka masham! wachaaaa!!! *hide belakang langsir* XP

Anyways thats all i guess..toodles! ^_^

Warghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-11-20T05:30:00.000-08:00

Honestly guys it's really getting on my nerves~!
My head can't stop thinking , macam otak ni tengah berlari 1000000000x meter!! (okay, im exaggerating)
Tapi seriously, sakit otak!

Okay, i bet you guys must be wondering about WTH!? Im talking about kan??

U see, i'm having another crisis with myself..there's something wrong about me tau..macam, separuh hati badan i cakap lain, separuh lagi cakap lain, macam two different person stuck in my huge bodyyyyyy!! its pressuring.

Susah bila dilahirkan dengan otak yang tak boleh berhenti berpikir, and having second thoughts, plus perlukan orang lain untuk decide (i pity the people yang kene tempias wabak saya ni)..uguugug~

So yeah, currently i am in a "serious thinking" position...i was either thinking of leaving my hair black, or dyeing it purple...and yeah, at the same time i am still not over the fact about "bertudung"..because honestly..deep deep deeeeeepppppppp!!! in my heart i want to change into that" sooner or later, and having this second thought just kills me so badly! kesian kan?

And another thing i am thinking about, is the serious but hasty decision that i'm about to do, where it also involve me having to lie (white lie) to my parents and it involves my job..erghh..okay i guess i just say till there, not more..as its too private and confidential...sobs sobs..

Anyhow! i'm stuck in the middle of everything right now and i'm freaking tired..about even think about thinking..haa..macam mana tu? ok lah..till then toodles!!

Ape motif kau post ni cik qiqi oi?????

Omuraisu

2011-11-17T06:31:00.000-08:00

Selamat sejahtera semua!! ♥
Hari ini qiqi nak post up, resepi yang telah biasa qiqi buat. Alang-alang tak tahu nak post ape, main bantai lah post benda alah ni.
Nama resepi ni adalah Omuraisu, Omu means telur dalam bahasa jepun, and raisu pula adalah nasi. (wahh..ade sesi kelas jepun pulak) so dekenali sebagai Nasi Pataya di negara kita. Well, makanan ni ade lah kaut paut dalam makanan kita jugak kan =)
Hidangan untuk seorang

(Lapisan telur)

2biji Telur
secubit Garam
secubit Lada Sulah

(Nasi Goreng)

2ulas Bawang putih (dipotong halus)
1ulas Bawang merah (dipotong halus)
2biji Cili padi (potong halus)
1/2gengam Ikan bilis/udang/sotong (ikut suka korang la)
1biji Telur
2sudu Sauce ikan
1/2tsp Sos cili
1/2tsp Sos tomato
1/4tsp Kicap lemak manis
Secubit Lada sulah
Nasi yang siap dimasak
1 : Goreng ikan bilis dan telur (berasingan) dan letak tepi.
2 : Tumis bawang dan cili padi sehingga naik bau.
3 : Masukan ikan bilis dan telur, tumis sehingga sebati.
4 : Seterusnya masukan sos ikan, kicap, sos cili, sos tomato. Kacau hingga serata
5 : Masukan nasi dan gaulkan dengan sos sampai sebati. Lada sulah secukup rasa.
6 : lepas dah siap, asingkan nasi di pingan lain.
Telur time!!!!

1: Kacau telur dengan garam dan lada sulah.
2 : Panaskan frying pan dengan minyak (jangan banyak sangat, just cukup2 supaya telur tak melekat)
3 : Ikut lah cara macam dalam gambar ni. okay?? =D

TADAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!! siap pun!! hehe...okay fine, qiqi post gambar buruk xda presentation langsung, sebab qiqi memmang tak suka makan dengan sos or sayur bagai..haaa..qiqi suka makan kosong (kosong kosong pun sedap tau!)
Selamat mencuba!!! toodles!! ^_^v

Failure - Apam Polka Dot & Ladybird

2011-11-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

Okay people, ni resepi yang gagal qiqi buat, it was just a first trial and an experiment..lol..sokay, training and practice makes perfect kan =)

Anyway, i decided nak buat ni macam trial until qiqi berjaya membuat yang terbaik (apam ni xjadi sebab bahan tak ada and qi main bantai letak telur lebih + telur qi malas nak kacau sampai kembang..memang sah a apam xnaik XP)

Bahan-Bahan (no need to follow sangat lah)

2nos Eggs
1cup Sugar
1cup Water
1cup Cooking oil
1tsp Vanilla essences
1cup Condense milk
1tsp Baking powder (baking powder dah habiz, ni ja mampu XO)
Food coloring

Okay first of all i just combined all the ingredients like always~
Than separate it into sections, letak lah color ape2 yang korang nak..
than placed it into a pipping bag (easy for u to decorate)..qi xda pipping bag, so i placed into a plastic..haaa...pandai sanagt kan saya XD
yes, buruk saya tau..huuu..anyway..buat la bentuk polka dot or ladybird tuh or ape2 bentuk yang korang nak..heee~
kukus kan under medium heat, jgn api kuat cz nanti apam naik sangat sampai atas dye pecah..(well mine xnaik langsung..so xpayah kot nak kecoh)..haaa
tadaa..siap pun..rasa sedap..tp gagal sb saya buat buruk and apam tu xnaik..huhuhu..xpelah..just try next time..lol XD

Our 4th date together and a shopping spree!!!

2011-11-08T16:29:00.000-08:00

Hello peeps!! this post would be about the date with my Mr.Hubby last friday, pictures are 100% original, unedited (kalau rasa2 nak edit kan untuk qiqi, silakan lah~) hhehe..well..saya mintak maaf kerana tidak sempat menyelit gambar Mr.Hubby saya, sebab terlampau kusyuk dating sampai terlupa nak tembak gambar :P

Okay, not much to talk about here, just nak mengupload pictures sebab kawan2 saya beria-ia nak tengok...haa...tengok lah betapa sikit nye gambar yang qi snap haritu, tu pun time tengah tunggu Mr.hubby yang lambat sampai..haa..mencabub kat tandas jap an..hee..
If sape2 dok pikir and guessing, yes that's a wig i'm wearing, because Mr.Hubby nak tgok sye lam wig lak an..dye kata time ni qiqi nampak sejibik..eh sebijik macam gambar dalam default pictures qiqi dalam facebook..hehe! betol kah??
Speaking of that, next date kitorang, we are planning to do something different instead of the basic macam tengok wayang bagai..haa..qi either nak spend time melalaks, ataupun nak pergi tengok ikan-2...ye..pergi Aquaria kat KLCC tuh....but after much thinking, i decided to go to KLCC instead..insya'allah our next date 5th date agak2 lam cukup bulan ni atau next month..haa..kali ni Mr.Hubby belanja saya pulaks!! XD
And..we decided that the next date, nak pakai baju yang sama-2, mesti macam sweet-2 couple lelain kan kan?? hehe...yes..nanti korang tengok jela baju ape kitorang nak pakai..*wink ;)
Yang pasti,saya dah malas nak selekeh sememeh dan serabai depan Mr.Hubby saya, kene maintain la, bukan selalu boleh berjumpa..lagipun biar Mr.hubby jealous bila ramai orang usya qiqi macam haritu..(suka tengok riaksi dia) XD
Okay, mesti korang dah malas nak dengar saya petpot pasal date la, Mr.hubby la bagai kan..ye..kalau nak termuntah tu silakan lah, yang saya tau, ni blog saya, ikot suka saya nak tulis apa...as long i am happy~♥

Kalau agak-2 tak suka tu silakan lah mengangkat jari jemari tu and tekan butan "X" kat atas header tuh haa..xmati pun saya~ =)

Okay ni post barang-2 yang qi beli mase dating harituh, and before date..haa~ Ni handbag yang qi beli...heee..handbeg saya adek saya dah tibai, pakai beg plastik je pergi kerja..so alang-2 ade kesempatan., saya beli la beg baru..huhu~
Baju inner Long sleeve (bila nak pakai tudung nanti..ye saya masih dengan niat saya, dun worry)..

qi dah lama gila cari inner warna turquoise ni haa..mse jenjalan kat masjid india nan ummi, ternampak, pikir punya pikir last-2 amik jugak, yela, kang xpasal-2 kecewa sebab tak beli kan..owh than i bought a yellow one too, nampak lawa..so amek jela..makcik kedai tu tanya ape qi nak buat dengan baju tu sebab ummi tanya..jawapan qiqi..: "simpan" ahahah!! "pemboros betol kau kan qiqi"
Ni heels yang qiqi beli...welcome home baybeh!! (qi nak kumpul kasut pulak sekarang)
Tube cikenot yang saya beli..dah lama cri benda ni..haaa~ but qi belom test drive lagy la benda alah ni..
Ni tank top qi beli sukasuki ja...sah ko pemboros qiqi~
same goes with this top..ahak!
Yang ni qiqi memang nak...haaa...my lil sys was searching for an off shoulder top, tup tup jumpa ni, so saya beli la dua2..haa..satu untuk saya, satu untuk adek saya~
Singlets =)
Oppss!! ahak!! ni qi memang nak..sebab yang lama semua dah buang, nak tukar wardrobe la katakan..semua new..heheh~ sekarang semua inti almari qiqi penuh dengan warna warni~ ^_^
Beanie saya borong~ hahaha!! sekali harung ni beli! satu Rm 40..so total...u do the math~

Opppss again!! ahak!! what for memalu, yes, kan saya cakap nak tukar semua and buang yang lama kan..amek kau bukit2 spender colorfull saya~ heee~ cukup kot ka nak beli lagy ea?? hmmm =__=??

Ahak! so anyway, macam korang lihat blog post ni xda faedah mana pon..hehe..saje je post it up toodles!! =P

Kantoi dengan bakal sugardady =_=

2011-11-04T18:03:00.000-07:00

YAWWW!!! What's up what's up peeps!?!?!? LMFAO!!

Okay guys, harini qiqi tengah mood gile-2 kambing jap, CC ni sejuk nak mampus kot, qi sekarang tengah bosan sambil menahan kencing.. (what qiqi?? seriously??), ingat dok umah leh a melepaks meraban kejap, but sadly saya terpaksa bertolak ke tempat kerja 7jam awal gara-2 kereta ayahnda ku ingin ke butik menservis usus-2 nya..sobs sobs

Oraite, semalam qiqi and Mr.hubby went dating sambil mencabub muka kat tengah2 kota metropolitan Kuala Lumpur uoolss!! wakaka, dah lama qiqi keluar tak macam selalu, and yes, tak dinafikan tindak balas masih seperti dulu, that is. Aku masih hotsetap..huh? what? prasan an ko qiqi! piu piu!! haa..kidding~ well..not really la, even Mr.Hubby saya perasan yang ramai memerhatikan saya, and tak dinafikan juga..terkantoi ngan seorang mamat ni ade baya2 umok apak gua..ahaks! ye, story nye cani..mase ku sedang menunggu Mr.Hubby yang lambat nak mampus tuh..tetiba qiqi diekori oleh seseorang yang tetiba jalan selamba ditepi qiqi. ayat pertama keluar .."Are you foreigner or local?" aik? aku ade rupa cam orang luar ka? pergh..dari tadi sume dok usya pangil aku minahsalleh , takan sampai camtu kot rupa aku...qiqi pun dengan senyum ayu2 nya, mengeleng kepala..no brotha im not manusia non malaysian..than mula tanya mcam2 yang saya rasa korang tak yah nak amek kecoh aite..but yang takleh blah..masa daku sedang mencover kegelabahan, mamat sial ni mintak no qiqi, cause qiqi tak habis2 reject dia nye offer nak lunch dinner supper nan saya..atoiyai, ni yang taknak ni..aku nak datings ngan balaks! tak paham ka?? haish..so, lam masa suntuk tu, qiqi dapat idea, so saya passing la mamat ni no Mr.Hubby, and lam masa tu jugak saya set fon ke silent, bile mamat ni call..depan qiqi, qiqi cakap, my phone is in silent mode, ahak! (harap tak kantoi)..than..tadaa!! tetiba, dia cbe dekatkan fon ke telingga..Mr.Hubby angkat! OMK!!! kantoi sudah, so pakcik ni pn nan senyum *got the fucking message la tu* qi cover cakap, fon saya nan dia..pergh..aku dah mati kutu babi time tu dowh!! malu!!! pape pun bila saya blah, saya pun call dady..and and..he sounds mad cause saya gelabah tak pasal2, mana tak nya..i dont like orang usya macam ni..gila ka pe? dah a kantoi depan-2! =_=

So yeah, tulah salah satu story yang interesting terjadi pada date semalam. sorry followers, haters, fans and everyone. saya tak dapat menghapeload pictures sebab saya terlupa membawa USB cord ..haaaa~

Anyway, baru saya tersedar sesuatu pada hamba allah ni nya blog, ye, famous nye awak!! wow! im impressed babeh!! haha, awak pun stalk saya jugak kans sayangs~ so kite dalam kapal yang sama..woot woot! selamat berkenalan, saya qiqi..ape khabar? FYI, hunny saya stalk awak bukan sebab awak famous bagai, tapi sebab awak boleh dikatogorikan sebagai manusia ke-3 dalam relationship tak sah kami ini, tapi ape2 pun intuition dalam diri saya dapat merasa yang dia masih tidak mahu mlepaskan Mr.Hubby saya deep down in her heart, babe, saya tak suka perangai hippopotamus ehh! hypocrite awak la...tak yah lah nak menyorok disebalik status "kawan" tu whereas you still have feelings for him, dari ape saya tengok, awak bukan saja ade perasaan kepada dia, malah awak sengaja ingin menagih simpati dia and buat dia rasa kecian (ololo comel nye) and cam rasa bersalah kan kan kanssss~, kalau betol itu adalah kesedihan untuk kegembiraan orang lain (iaitu saya) and its your pengorbanan, dan apo ke hal nyo jang oi ko nak post stat mintak maaf kat dia tu, kalau ikhlas, senyap2 sudah..kan lebih afdal, nampak awak tak ikhlas kan babeh?? ;) other than that wish birthday awak tu, wahh..sengaja mahu mempamerkan kesweetan message Mr.hubby saya yang terkandung ayat sayang, dan i love u tu, yang saya tahu akan mengakibatkan bergolakan dalam hubungan saya dengan Mr.hubby, awak kan memang suka camtu...but sokay, saya hanya senyum and diam diri and wait and see what would happen after that. Ape-2 pun, saya tak akan mengaku kalah, selagi Mr.hubby dan saya mampu bertahan, i'll wait for him to accept me like how i want him too, insya'allah, i'll hold strong on our relationship. Because so far, kesemua pergaduhan, kesalahpahaman saya dan Mr.hubby and seberapa ribu ribu kali saya meminta putus Mr.hubby tetap tidak melepaskan saya..ahaks!, alhamdullilah, we are strong and together till today. sooooo peace out!! ♥

Btw gambar diatas tu bukan gambar semalam ye, tetapi gambar 3-4tahun lepas..ahak!

New Improvement!

2011-10-29T07:43:00.000-07:00

Hye peeps! what's up?? today post yang agak straight forward, sebab qiqi kesuntukan masa..(yelakan, on9 30min before masok kerja)..LOL....okay so now...first of all, ni gambar yang qiqi dapat tangkap when i was bored at home during my offday last saturday. Gambar simple xada idea..tapi turned out to be amazing..i'm hack happy with the results. And these pictures has gotten me a lot of compliments..=D
And thanks to these pictures to ( i think la)... the way my hubby dady treats me starting to improve too,he is being really caring and loving lately..good good, i'm happy..even though sometimes i can be a little bit pushy..lol..My bad i guess..haaa...

Speaking of dady, this friday we are going out dating, it would be our 4th date, i can't wait!! i'm fuck excited!! LOL...mintak2 gaji masok cepat leh enjoy puas2 owh! hahah!!

Owh..and lastly, ive just read this hamba allah nye blog, haish..qiqi tau blog post tu dituju pada saya, well, u can call me a stalker if u like, but that makes no difference about u too as u are stalking me also right?..hah..lau kata x..than what's that ur reading girly? obvious right?? =)
anyway, thanks for backing off, its a great thing to do lady...and i ask of u not to get involve anymore further with him, please do respect that thanks..im not asking much, but the way u treat him and the way u write about him is just not the way how u supposed to treat someone who is already taken. i hope u understand. anyhow, i wish u all the best with ur life, no hard feelings aite babe? 0-0...assalamualaikum =)

Anyhow, do enjoy these pictures..and don't forget to enjoy your life too..till then..

Toodles

Love You Dady ♥

2011-10-29T07:25:00.000-07:00

Tonight dady gave me this song ♥ ♥

Let's Share 2 ♥

2011-10-29T01:57:00.000-07:00

Guy's and Sex

Okay, hari ini qiqi nak share tentang my opinion in this isu or a way most girls think (including me).. So now, we have seen my previous post about virginity right? Now i would like to go deeper into how girl's think about men and sex. (i'm sorry if this post is going to be too forward and harsh)...

Firstly, remember what i've said before about when a girl asik2 main than ditinggalkan Bf? and yes, sometimes that girl might have been dump by her FWB (friend with benefits) even so they had sex?? Okay...so here it is, Girls!! Don't think that when you give your body to a guy, his going to change his mind and would stay with you. NO!! HE WONT!! not your boyfriend not your FWB non of them will...To them sex is nothing. I'm not saying all of the guys, but i'm referring to majority of them.

Okay, qiqi sebenarnya lagi suka menulis dalam English, but qiqi takowt ramai yang tak akan paham. So qiqi akan cuba sehabis baik mengamalkan menulis dalam Bahasa Malaysia. Okay?

Ermm, This post is random, jadi qi main tulis ape yang telintas di pikiran qiqi,
Di sini qi nak bagitahu, ramai perempuan selalu berangapan yang bila dye menyerahkan diri dia pada seorang lelaki diatas sebab2 tersendiri. Dia pikir yang lelaki itu akan sentiasa berada dengan dia atau stay dengan dia. Well, sebenarnya tidak, sebab bagi qiqi lelaki bila "Dah dapat" dia akan mula rasa bosan dan rasa xmencabar, jadi lelaki tu akan mengangap perempuan tu macam "nothing" , same goes to relationships. Mase mula2 beriya2 nak awek tu sebab cun, lawa,cute awesome.. but bile dah dapat, dia akan senang2 meninggalkan perempuan tu ..remember that word "dah dapat"...Jadi, seharusnya para perempuan sekalian sedar yang (ayat qiqi baku habiz dowh!!)..whatever you do, when a guy "dah dapat" bila2 je dia akan meninggalkn kita..

Tak kisah la kalau korang dah couple bertahun or baru 2hari, kalau laki tu dah dapat ape dia nak, dia dah tak akan mengambil serious pada korang lagy, and mula lah lelaki itu mencari perempuan-2 lain untuk dia try , itu naluri lelaki, saya xberapa nak arif tentang tu, but yes, even if your married, if a guy is bored with you, he will just walk off, not because he wants to, but its because he can...jadi, kalau korang dah couple tu, seharusnya korang jual mahal (this part qiqi sentiasa gagal)....yes, jual mahal..sejauh mana nak jual mahal tu qiqi tak tahu, but seriously a guy LOVES CHALLENGE (tapi jangan lah jual mahal sampai mengabaikan dia teros)....so thats why bila kita senang2 memberi ape dia nak (macam saya ni...) he will just angkat kaki la jawabnya..kenapa qiqi post pasal benda ni? well..sebab benda ni dah banyak kali terjadi pada qiqi and of cause to my girlfriends, bukan setakat just membabit kan sex but juga membabitkan dari aspek lain for example dari cara layanan lelaki tu bila dah berjaya mendapat kita perempuan ni sebagai GF dorang, so yeah, but bagi qiqi, qi boleh dikatakan masak dengan benda alah ni, tapi sampai sekarang masih xberubah..sebab seriously saya tak tahu nak "menjual mahal" , its hard bila dah sayangkan seseorang tu, no doubt.. even if its just your FWB.. walaupun if perhubungan status korang just FWB, you tetap akan rasa jealous and sakit hati bile dapat tau tetiba dia couple..and suddenly just lepas tangan on u. As in macam couple break tapi tanpa official break up. Sakit kan hati??

So sejauh mana kah kita mahu jual mahal or should us girls just give what we feel like giving because we love that guy..bile benda ni nak end? sometimes sex can bring a relationship closer, and sometimes it can also ruin someones relationship and thus a person's self-esteem hits rock bottom. In this matter we need to tolerate among eachother, kalau lepas tangan pun, biarlah dengan cara baik. bukan dengan cara main blah camtu ja. nampak sangat that the guy is fuckup...dah main ngan anak orang pastu main blah..kalau xnak amek responsibility, se-eloknya, jangan lah buat perbuatan tu kan? xyah buat, biarkan je girl tuh. xsalah pun, atleast rasa sakit budak perempuan tu tak seteruk kalau dipermainkan macam anak patung.

Satu lagi isu is when a girl bile dh bersama/bercouple, dia kalau boleh nak spend time nan bf dia sebanyak mungkin. sampaikan bile bf "dah dapat" in a way as in berjaya membuat perempuan tu gf dye or cm mengikut setiap kata-2 jantan tuh, he then ignores her...jadi girl tu akan rasa cam diperbodohkan sebab macam perigi cari timba pulak, terhegeh2 kat laki tuh, but laki tu layan girl tu macam "nothing"...and in the end laki tu angkat kaki. Kenapakah begitu senang untuk melepaskan seseorang?

Well, easy to say..in this matter, kite memerlukan satu perhubungan yang dua2 pihak mempunyai tabiat sayang menyayangi, setia dan rasa bertanggungjawab antara satu sama lain. Bukan nya atititude "Touch n Go" and tabiat "Tidak Apa", pemikiran dan perbuatan yang TAK MATANG...Jadi sape nak di persalahkan? Lelaki or perempuan? Pikir2 lah sendiri. =)

This is a song for those Losers who doesn't know how to appreciate a person.

Anniversary Celebration♥

2011-10-25T17:38:00.000-07:00

Blog update people!! Hoho!! kecoh betol kau kan qiqi?! Okay everyone, maafkan saya jika blog qi ni selalu mensunyikan diri. Saya tak tahu +malas nak berbelog sebenarnya..ala- biasalakan..orang yang dah berkerjaya..busy memanjang je..penat je selalu..no time to update + melayan sangat benda-2 ni dah macam dahulu kala..lagy pun, honestly, qiqi tak mempunyai idea nak blog pasal ape..heee

Okay-2!! stop the pot pet qiqi!! xada sape nak dengar kau merapu..heee..Anyways, saya ingin mengucapkan Happy Deepavali kepada 1 Malaysia!! heee..sudi-2 lah sharing muruku tu together-gether la ye =D
And yeah, pada hari ini juga merupakan Anniversary Yang ke-2 (bulan) qiqi dengan Hilmy my cute-2 hubby ♥♥

Hee!! Tak sangka baru 2bulan kitorang couple..okay fine, tak lama mana pun..but seriously la, selama dua bulan ni , dah banyak yang kitorang dah lalui, dan dah banyak kali qiqi mintak kata putus..yes break up..but alhamdullilah..kitorang masih kekal sampai ke hari ini.. Syukur qiqi dapat boyfie yang tidak membuat keputusan secara melulu dan mengikut perasaan cam qiqi..yes..saya bodoh kan..asal marah ja mintak break..asal jealous sikit nak break..takot benda dulu berulang lagi..phobia dengan ape terjadi ketika bersama ex-2 bf saya..haa...tak mahu melalui rasa sakit tu lagy..ugugug~ mulut cakap lain..hati cakap lain..haaa sobs sobs..

Apa-2 pun qiqi berharap relationship qiqi dan Hilmy akan kekal..I know its not going to be easy and i know masih banyak lagi benda qiqi tak berape kenan dengan dia and dia nan qiqi, plus cabaran yang perlu kitorang harungi lagi. I just hope that the more we are together , the stronger our feelings for eachother grows. Mumy sayang dady sangat-2 tau!! Happy 2nd Month Anniversary sayan

Cencaru Sumbat

2011-10-22T00:23:00.000-07:00

Okay, honestly lately qiqi tengah sebok gila..due to my work...*sigh~

anyway, saya xtau nak post ape, and baru ja kejap tadi qiqi teringat nak post up resepi an, alang2 blog mensunyikan diri...okay, resepi kali ni adelah fav saye..maaf lau xda sukatan..sebab resepi ni qiqi main bantai je buat..but jujur cakap, ni lah salah satu lauk qiqi buat yang my whole family suka, termasuk orang2 luar sana..hoho, resepi ni sedap lau digoreng ikan tu daripada di bakar..jadi qiqi tunjuk versi goreng jela (maaf gambar xori, xsempat tangkap)....ok here we go!!! ^_^v

Ikan Cencaru

Bawang Kisar

Cili Boh (kisar)

Belacan

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Okay, first of all, siang ikan tu dekat tulang belakang dia, well..kat atas dye la...qiqi pangil tempat tu cam tulang blakang (that's where nak sumbat bumbu tu semua)..

2 : campurkan cili boh dan bawang kisar ikot sukatan ni (bawang 2/3, cili boh 1/3)...okay?? =)

3 : Masukan belacan, and gaul sebati, ingat sebati tau sebab nak belacan tu merasa nanti...macam qiqi, qiqi suka taruk banyak2..biar masin...seyes sedap!! tapi jangan lah over sangat...takat 3-5inci cukup lah..qi letak banyak sebab xletak garam or pati ayam..jadi belacan je...hoho!!

4 : letak bumbu tu kar ikan biar ikan tu disumbat2 dan disapu2 sampai semua tempat kena okay? baru la nikmat bila makan....

5 : last most, goreng lah....hehehe..habuk dye pun sedap lau dibuat makan, just jangan hanguskan lah lau boleh...pandai kawal api ye adek2..heeeee..

SELAMAT MENCUBA!!!!!♥ ♥ ♥

A Change of Character♥

2011-10-14T17:04:00.000-07:00

Heyawww!! watssup wassup berasap!? okay..just a little update since i'm currently online, lau xupdate tah bile lagi nak update kan...ye2, org berkerjaya la katakan..(kerjaya ke??) hoho..anyway, kesibukan melampau kebelakangan ni..lagy2 semalam..hooo..keje melebihi 12jam..lebih okay...hmmm 16jam to be exact..then tgok2 sye terpaksa menterpaculkan diri pepagi buta kat tengah2 shopping mall yang kosong, nasib baik ade CC lau x..tah pe la nak buat kat sini an..huuuu..keje start pukul 9.30am, sy kat sni pukul 7am..terbaik wokk!! XD

Ni nak cite ni, semalam ade benda terjadi kat qiqi membabitkan chipmunky hubby sye tuh..(kecoh la pulak an)...well..whatever, its my blog..so what??! orang lain nak tulis tacing2 boleh kenapa saye xleh!? grrr!! grrr!!! okay qiqi, tak pro langsung ko menulis...haaa..Anyways~ semalam si dia berkelakuan pelik bagi saye, tak penah2 dibuat dia, to me its weird sebab cam tak tersangka, buang tabiat ke dia?? i dont know..haa..but honestly i like it..=)

qiqi semalam kesebukan sangat sampai malas nak membabitkan hal luaran, cuz seriously im tired of those bullshitz...but like always, it surprised me bile ttbe dye berkelakuan caring gile..siapakah?? my BF la nok!! tak kan pakcik jual bunga api lak?? hmmm -___-

so yeah, its weird, dye msg qi, and what is amazing, sangup dia call qiqi, cakap dia risau...and dia rindu qiqi and sayang qiqi, plus his worried sebab dulu penah terjadi dia call and text qiqi xreply langsung, sangup dia stay up demi saya..haa..kerja punya pasal kan..huhu...not my fault uollsss!! hhooho!! so yeah...plus lam sms2 dye tu, nampak sangat dia caring semacam...pelik pelik...sampaikan dia pangil qiqi nama2 sweet gitu! auchh!! haha! yes, cz usually kitorang pangil dady&mumy je..opss!! terbongkar rahsia..hahah!! XD *okay sekarang qiqi yang buang tebiat*..than kan kan..ttbe dye xreply msg qiqi..kenapakah?? busy kah??? qi pun dekat 30min tunggu qi try la call, risau pulak saya...rupanya kredit dia dah habiz..ololol..cian~ xpelah..more time for me to sleep act, but lam conversation tu, mak aih!! sweet sangat2..dapat qiqi rasa hati luhur dye yang caring and sayangkan qiqi tu, tak habiz2 cakap i love u i love u,i miss u...hehe *blushing* selebihnye, biar lah rahsia..korang nak tau lebih2 kenapa pulak?? tak baik tau dengar conversation orang..hehe...conclusinya....last night, out of the blue, he changed, maybe only for that night, if it last, thanked god, because seriously, that's the kind of boyfriend i want, someone who worries about me, who keep saying "i love u" xluak punkan lau cakap camtu kat org kite sayang?? jangan pulak curang..tu memang nak kene sepak terajang!! anyway, dady promised me to not noty2..kang tau la qiqi buat cane..hoho! gertak ni gertak ni!! grrr!! grrr!! anyway, to my hubby, i love u too...even if its just for a night, its the best night i ever had.. thanks for making my day =) ♥ ♥

A War A Peace

2011-10-12T20:06:00.000-07:00

Last night was a memorable day for me, After a big fight due to certain reasons, we are back like before again.I miss the old times where we would....TETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!! dh la ckp BI, nk ckp melayu la pulak..ngeheheh..well, semalam qi gaduh agak besar sb ade lah orang tu kan, tulis something yang mak aih! xleh diprocess dek otak qiqi ni haa..pe kes org tu xgeti bahasa ke? tak tau rules of nature to not touch2 what belongs to others? okay fine..his not 100% belong to me cuz his not married, but HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!! Minah! ko suka ke lau minah2 lain kacau balaks ko?? suka?? looike???? eh LIKE??? i bet ko msti suka suki an, sb ko buat mcm tu kat org lain..terbaik wok!! wooppsss!! ape rahsia2?? heh! terang bederang sye tau awak tulis pasal siapa...anyway, saya kat sini malas nak fighting2 la...bukan orang suka pun kan, macam budak2 ja, but all i hope is, "i want u to know, his mine now, and please mind ur words and touchy2 what belongs to me short "BACKOFF"" ur time is up a long time ago, kalau cakap kawan, buat cara kawan,sye tak kisah awak nak kawan nan dia pun..tapi kalau sume kawan awak buat cni..haish..kalah minah free hair..salang membe2 qiqi tau adab berkawan dan bercouple cne, awak layan kawan cam awak ni couple nan dia tu yang saya xpaham..padahal saya tau awak tau kitorg dah bersama...he told me that he had told u before already...anyway..skip that..malas nak potpet, kang ade yang nak report2 and tak puas hati and sound2 qiqi nanty, tau lah mulut orang..dunia dunia..like i say, my blog my prob...harap awak tak terasa hati..lau terasa..i dont know~ sorry naik lorry...Peace yaw!! xda niat pun nak awak touching ngan saya.. ^_^v

Okay, so there, maaf buat pembaca yang lain sebab penceramahan sedikit diatas sana, saya dah cukup bersabar ngan sorang hamba allah ni haa, siapakah dia? well, biar saya ja and dia ja yang tau..yang TerRASA...i'm sorry okay..heee...anyway, blog makin mensunyi, sebab saya sebok dengan hal kehidupan dan perhubungan sendiri, and ade jugak unsur2 malas kerana apa yang saya hendak menulis telah dihalang kaw2 punya kerana nak jaga hati orang...haish..asik jaga hati orang, orang pulak xjaga hati saya...untunglah~huhu....so di sini..saya ingin selitkan gambar2 hotsetap saya just to isi ruangan2 kosong di sini...hotsetap ke?? no lah...just gambar ketika bosan ja, alang2 cuti kan..snap lah gambar...heee...okay, i'm going to go to work now, jadi takat sini je saya dapat tulis...btw, qiqi dah asingkan a few stuff kat blog contohnye cam yang "pages" kat atas tu, qiqi nanti akan muatkan resipi2 yang qiqi buat, and rajin nak post, sb ramai dah mintak...ramai dok complen "qiqi, nape blog dh kosong..i miss u, i miss hearing from u, i love u..." woot woot!! xdelah sampai camtu skali..but something like that la..hoho!! okay2...niat xnak potpet, tapi terlebih pot pet lak..hehehe..maaf2...okay la...Sorry manusia2 , stalkers2, haters2 peminats2, dan awak awak dan awak yang berpuas and tak puas hati nan saya, jangan marah2 nanti cepat tua..peace out~!!

Moon Ray.

2011-10-09T17:45:00.000-07:00

Last night on the 9th Oct 2011, my little sister called out to me when i was on my way to the bathroom to take a shower. With just a piece of towel covering my body, i ran out to see what is going on. And there i saw up in the sky, with my so not good blurry eyes. That night was really beautiful, looking at the ray circling the moon. it was a sight that wont happen everyday in our life. But i was not at all happy, as that exact night i had a really bad conversation with someone who is dearly to me. If only he could understand how i feel. But i guess it would never happen. I know that deep down, he blames me for what had happen, but if not because of the past bad occasions that involves someone from his side, all this could have not happened to us. As i see it, we were near perfect being together. But that is not what i see now, everyday seems like hell breaking lose.

Anyways, whatever it is, that moon made me realized i need to take a break of everything. of ever feeling sad and lonely and mad at all times, If he cant help me to make things better, than in a way..i try to do what is best for me at the moment. till then.

Btw, sorry for the emo post...i was bored and was taken aback at what happened yesterday, all and all..i'm quite busy lately, but i'll try my best to repay what i have been missing out..take care ^_^v

Girls & Virginity

2011-09-27T18:45:00.000-07:00

Girls & virginity, or we could also put it as "perempuan dan dara". This might seem like a sensitive topic, but lets just view it in a more general way, okay?

Okay perempuan dan dara? Mesti ramai akan tersentap + terasa ter-touching dengan topic ni. But i am not here to offend anyone's feelings. Saya hanya ingin berbelong dan sharing pandangan saya terhadap konsep perempuan dan dara pada zaman ni. Jadi, kalau uolls ade pandangan sendiri atau nak share-share, please do so, but please sangat2 janganlah mencetus peperangan dunia ke-3 kat sini yaa? :)

Okay, first o of all, di dunia yang serba modern ni, kita tak dapat menafikan yang semakin ramai perempuan sekarang "dah tak ada dara". OPPSS!! hehe..kepada akak2, makcik2, dan janda2 di luar sana yang terasa, please don't. Sebab saya sedang focuskan pasa anak gadis kita yang not married je.

Saya bukan nak membuka aib orang, atau nak memalukan sesiapa, dan saya juga tak mahu menyalahkan siapa2. Tu hal diorang, masa silam diorang, pilihan diorang, dosa masing2 kan? kubur pun masing2, hidup masing2. =)

Okay, so..a few days back, qiqi adelah ber-chit chat dengan budak2 lelaki kat tempat kerja qiqi, and terkeluarlah topic ni. Qiqi tanya diorang (sebab diorang asik 2 buat lawak bodoh ja).

Qiqi : Korang kalau cari perempuan untuk dibuat gf/ isteri, korang cari yang dara atau tak kisah yang dah ber-experience?

And adelah salah seorang lelaki ni cakap (well, semua lelaki setuju dengan statement dye ni haa).

Mr.P : Ofcause la dara~ *dengan muka selamba xboleh blah!*

Qiqi : Aik? kenapa dara? habis mana nak campak perempuan2 yang tak dara ni? padahal reason perempuan tak dara pun sebab lelaki jugak.

Mr.P : Dah perempuan tu tak geti nak jaga diri, sape suruh?

(haa...perempuan jugak dipersalahkan, okay fine..tapi statement pedas bro!!)

Qiqi : Kalau korang nak buat isteri semua nak dara, and korang cakap perempuan tak geti jaga diri. korang tak rasa ke budak lelaki tu jugak salah, sebab main dengan perempuan tu?

Mr.P : Eh! gua tak, ok? gua tau jaga anak orang.

(ewah2, ye2 je ko an abang)

Qiqi : okay, last question..If korang cakap korang geti jaga anak orang, than aku nak tanya..korang sekarang ni dara/teruna ke tak?? *senyum sinis* ;)

Mr.P : HAHHAHA!! Ofcause la tak.

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HAAAAAAAAA!!!! KANTOI!!! u see u see u see!!!! korang nampak perbualan tu tadi? tak sia2 ja kan, boleh ja qiqi post blog kali ni..akhirnye ade idea..kalau tak, sunyi je blog qiqi ni haaa..XD

Okay, based on perbualan tu, qi masih dapat melihat bertapa cetek + unfairnya dorang terhadap menjudge perempua2 yang tak berdara ni. Try to look back and put yourself at that person's place. Korang tak tau ape sebab kenapa that girl is not a virgin anymore. Maybe dia pernah dirogol oleh lelaki yang bergelar bapa, pakcik, kawan, boyfriend, exboyfriend? (suami tak kira okay~), and orang tah siapa2, easy to say, manusia yang ada batang or generally known as dick/penis..lah..yang lelaki tak tahu tu...cuba korang intip2 dalam boxers/seluar dalam (spender) korang tu. haa..yang benda kiut miut cam bentuk hot dog tu, haa!! benda tu lah!! comel kan totis..hehehe XD

There's a lot of reasons to why a girl is not a virgin anymore, why do guys judge a person based on their virginity and not the girl herself instead? She might have been through a terrible past (not all, but majority of them) like getting raped or cheated by her love ones, or maybe the person who slept with her might have passed away. Who knows right? so please try not to judge her before knowing her, don't just jump into conclusion.

Well, another scenario is that, ada sesetengah group of guys, yang tahu that girl is not a virgin, tak kisah la, awek ke, kawan ke, or even a girl he had just met. Boleh je dorang ajak main, atau dengan kata lain..ajak masuk bilik. Sangap kah? maybe....or maybe dia pikir :

1 : Alah~ perempuan ni dah tak dara, so tak pelah nak main. asalkan aku puas.
2 : Dia boleh main dengan lelaki lain, dengan aku kenapa tak boleh pulak kan?

Haish~ kenapalah lelaki tu tak protect that girl instead, bertanggungjawab lepas tahu ape dah jadi kat that girl? dan bukan nye merosakan that girl lagi? if you guys nak buat pun, buat lah..but do it because your serious with her, korang nakbuat da sebagai teman hidup, dan bukanye teman kepuasan. Bukankah lebih afdal? =)
Because your not just protecting her, but your also helping her to get her out from ever doing the same mistakes again. Kalau korang tak nak or tak berminat dengan tu semua, than with do respect, dont lay a finger on her la..kan senang?

And dari ape yang qiqi lihat, qi rasa yang reason kenapa these girls masih terjerumus membuat mistake ni berkali2 adalah sebab dibawah :

1 : Believing that, that the next person would help her end the mistake she had made for good, okay, ni macam contohnye she pernah main dengan ex dia (because of love) , and suddenly they broke up, lepas tu ofcause the next couple dia mengharapkan perhubungan ni, the next guy truly love her, and everything went perfect, and decided to have it kan. but after awhile, that guy too dump her. and this happens over and over again. the poor girls just needed someone who love her and her only, to end their relationship sampai ke jinjang pelamin, tapi lelaki ni lepas dah dapat. terus buang. =)

2 : After getting played and dumped. she realized that "sex" is just a mere activity yang boleh dibuat tanpa cinta or kasih sayang, ofcause lah dia xbrani nak buat dengan siapa2. because selama ni dia hanya buat dengan orang yang betol2 dia sayang . And suddenly one day ade laki ni datang. ajak main, but without any relationship..wow! peluang keemasan, lagi pun asik couple break ja theres not such thing as "the one", why not tak couple tapi dapat puaskan nafsu? perhatian..sex is like a drug, lepas dah kena, mesti nak lagi..tu la ramai selalau sangap. tapi ade setengah orang boleh control ade setengah orang tak. but for sure korang akan get hooked with it.

3 : lepas dah asik bermain ja, she realized that sex is nothing, boleh main dapat kat mana2 je, plus now ramai dah xvirgin pun, so sama jelah kan. And she gets bored easily, (WAH!! akak ni dah pro lah, dah lam category ber-experience) dia rasa sex is nothing, and mula lah dia berpikir untuk mencari semula her true love. dah penat nak jadi tempat orang puaskan nafsu. jadi dia meneruskan pencarian dia and yes, permainan tu dah mula berkurangan (bukan tak ada, tapi berkurang ye..in control)..dah xsangap sangat dah pun..but like it is, selagi dia tak kawin, selagi tu la hidup dia jadi macam selalu. on and off, dapat laki pun laki dump dia or dia dump laki.

(Tu lah pepatah, dah dapat madu , sepah dibuang..dah dapat rasa, perempuan tu main campak ja cam lampin pakai buang mamypoko)

Well you guys can see kan, yang benda ni tak akan berhenti kalau tak ada kerjasama dari kedua-dua belah pihak. Jadi janagan salahkan perempuan saja, sebab kenapa dia dah tak ada dara. sebab dalam kerunsingan dia, lelaki mengambil kesempatan.

And juga situasi dimana ada sesetengah golongan perempuan ni dah sampai phobia dengan lelaki or ape yang dah terjadi samapkai dorang sanggup membujang, lagi terok sampai jadi lesbian..hoho. Dalam hal ni qiqi tak slahkan laki atau perempuan tu, sebab bagi qi both are at equally at fault. but this is not an excuse to judge someone, instead treat everyone equally and not based of someone's virginity and past doings, kan? hate what the person is doing, not the doer. =)

Anyways, what would you do if seseorang itu bergelar janda? adakah korang akan menghina dia sebab dorang tak ada dara? eh?? what?? i heard someone said that its in a different category? haaa..but korang sendiri cakap kan yang korang hanya akan kawin dara? betul ka tak salah?? bak kata boyfie saya, sape makan jelly, terasa la lembut nye...or was it manis nye?? haha..qiqi pn dah lupa XD

So, renung renungkan lah ye, if someone you love madly/dearly is not a virgin, would you take her and love her because you do? or would you dump her because she is not a virgin? its your choice, but remember this is a person your dealing with, not a toy. She have feelings too,okay? toodles!! ♥

Sorry for the inconvenience =(

2011-09-24T05:54:00.000-07:00

I decided to go back, take a step back and prepare myself for the real deal, and do it the right way when the time is right..not half heatedly , nore doing it without following the basics..so i guess i have to postpone what i have been intended to do and set my mind on. I'm sorry if aq ni cam cakap keling, but its my choice and my decision, not going to do it if its not 100% right. =)

what am i referring to u ask?
well...its about me bertudung

i know i had promised (did i promised??) that i would start to use it before this year ends, and i felt bad for not taking my words seriously. well, its not that i don't want to or what, but think logically, its not all about just "bertudung"...oneself needs to be fully ready inside out, and yes, that includs from your attitude wise, your amal ibadah, sembahyang insya'allah, ofcause tak boleh tinggal...and others like puasa, tingkah laku, tutur kata and etc...all of that must be taken care off. so no use if nak bertudung tapi pragai mengalahkan orang tak bertudung an?

I'm not here to give excuses, or am i here to run away from doing what i've been intending too. I'm here because i want to set thing clear la.. i know, people would be like. "say what??!! but i thought she's finally doing the right thing!?" or " hahaha!! kan aku dah cakap, budak ni mesti tak ikhlas nak bertudung"..and so on...therefore, i firmly state that..."aku memang ikhlas nak bertudung! tapi aku nak buat dengan care yang 100% betol".....i dont want to do it just for the sake of covering up..just like some people nowadays as the hijab style is beginning to concur Malaysia, people do it for fashion..well not all..but its kind of a trend now right?? =)

Than again my dad told me stuff that i took realllllllllyyyyyyyyy seriously about, and these are the stuff that he said.

1 : if nak bertudung biar semua betol, not just tuudung, your sembahyang kene cukup, peragai kene elok, etc. (not going to go into details, just this will do, no? )

2 : if nak betudung, the right way is like this and that and blah blah blah....

It should cover the entire body, except the hands and face.
It should be loose enough and not to describe the body figure.
It should be free from perfume and incense and ostentation so as not to draw attention.
It should not resemble the clothes of men or non-Muslim women.
It should not be a garment of fame or vanity.

okay..overall, i'm to lazy to find more info about the real dress code for muslim women..but as far as i've done my research( based on my thoughts)

I see that the garment only needed to be closed when u are outside(in public) so when your at home, with your husband, friends and family, its not wrong to dress normal..if not die la want to use 24/7....hoho! this is like a jacket or an overcoat, that's why u see Arabs uses purdah, but they buy sexy2 clothing (figuring when they use it?? at home la haiyo!!~)

and another thing is that, we use this covering..so that we don't attract attention, and its not for style okay? see not attract attention but people still make it stylish and sometimes overly stylish...well...everyone have their reasons..so i'm not here to judge anything~

another thing i am so against the fact that people bertudung but still use skinny jeans that obviously reveal the shape of ones body figure, not to mention baju ketat2, and sometimes i could even view the color of their panties (panties??!!) yeah..panties..and another example, pakai tudung but man~!!..lengan pendek?? ermmm.....malas nak cakap la..judge for yourself..

owh and yeah, sekarang cover2 pun masih boleh carut marut bagai..and hati hitam bak ketiak baboon...hoho...that goes to your adab and stuff, so what for cover if your attitude stinks right? XD

so conclusion, don't need to cover if not going to be 100% ready or right...well, everyone is not perfect so i'm here not to say that what you are doing is wrong ( kepada yang sudah bertutup aurat)..cuma qiqi nak buat dengan care yang betol, and care yang betol itu memerlukan persediaan yang cukup dan bukan nye dengan separuh hati...and yeah..i was planning insya'allah berjubah sekali bile dh bersedia nanti..no no short2 tight2 naa, so sekarang i guess im going thru my life as usual and prepare myself quietly for that time to come. if you guys are thinking when..its when i am officially taken (as in "married", not couple la dufus~) =D

lastly assalamualaikum!

I dont know what to post about =)

2011-09-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

So i'm just going to promote my little sister's blog..yes, this budak dah pandai dah mengedit2 blog dia...kind of jealous..because she is really good at it now..and based on the condition of my blog...i am way left behind. But who cares, as long as it looks good and its way simple now comparing to my older blog's layout...this blog kind of gives that relaxing feeling, no? i hope it relaxes you..because that's what i am aiming for, for my readers..=)

okay..off with the chitchat..here is her URL....Mimi Zackryn

So anyways, lately i've been having this unpleasant feeling, yes, hati aku gelisah, tak sedap hati and i feel like something bad might happen..i dont know what and i dont know why, but what i can tell u, its not a good feeling and i dont like it at all...maybe i've been thinking a lot lately,and i've been through a rough path a few days back...but it might be something entirely different. It kind of made me lose my focus and interest in even working and go through my everyday life. let's just say..its sucks like mad cow!

So to sum it up, i don't really have anything to talk about as my life has been obviously ho-hum...maybe i'll try to post something up next time to keep you fellas entertain..till than. toodles.

New lens!! hehehe

2011-09-16T18:22:00.000-07:00

I'm having problem uploading the real pictures of my lens and its packaging, so i'm just going to post the lens add itself. Here are the lens that i bough the other day, sadly, the seller got the wrong power. Instead of sending me lenses with power, she sent me 0.0 and not 1.5..so yeah...no use using the lens for outdoors as i would still end up being a blind bat.

I'm satisfied with the color so far, just not the power, maybe its true, we gain something and lose something, i gain an extra pair of lens but i lose since all my lenses has 0 power...haha..but whatever..

btw i got everything at the price of rm70...cheap huh..each lens cost me rm25...no postage fees added. =)

A Walk In The Garden

2011-09-14T06:48:00.000-07:00

Nothing to talk about much, since i've lost my mood of ever blogging. Thanks to the farkup stalkers and haters out there..=)

Anyways, these are my new pictures i've just took today, i know i look gay..so pardon my gayness..LOL
Ive just realized that lately i've been having people stalking on my blog since i started dating my boyfriend, go figure...i guess that's what you get from a guy who has too many fans and female bodyguards...Not to mention getting bitch out from not doing anything..life is so awesome to see so much hatred just because of the fact that your being with someone..damn! haha!!

Anyways, due to this fact, i have to restrain myself from blogging about my personal life more over about my relationship. So yeah, i guess the posting part might slow down a tat bit. Because, honestly i don't know what to blog about. Maybe general stuff? But sorry to stay, nothing catches my interest lately. So yeah. Till then....Toodles!

A knock of sense.

2011-09-01T08:12:00.000-07:00

Clothing must cover the entire body, only the hands and face may remain visible (According to some Fiqh Schools).
The material must not be so thin that one can see through it.
The clothing must hang loose so that the shape of the body is not apparent.
The female clothing must not resemble the man's clothing.
The design of the clothing must not resemble the clothing of the non-believing women.
The design must not consist of bold designs which attract attention.
Clothing should not be worn for the sole purpose of gaining reputation or increasing one's status in society.

A few days back, i had a parent and child discussion with my parents when we were having breakfast before i head to work. I bought this month's InTrend magazine advised from my friend Andi Zephyr . She told me it might help me out with my change of style..yes "berhijab".

Shockingly, after the talk i had this opinion from my dad " better you use it after marriage if your husband allow you too" because to him, i might not be 100% ready as the right way of menutup aurat *see the above dresscode* is what it is supposed to be. i know Andi told me this matter is a debatable issue, my dad said that the right way of using it is like those purdah arab people we see at the shopping malls. and yes ive done my research that its true what my dad said, connecting that with my work experience, those Arabs actually bought sexy clothis, owh yeah, hot pants tuh xyah nak cakap lah...and i wonder..when do they use these clothes because we always see them in those purdah..

And here is what i know, based on my research, the purdah is just an overcoat they use to cover themselves around public places. yes like a shield or something, and they use like we normal people do inside...haaa~ and based from my dad's teenage years, his friend uses purdah when they go out to the open, but when they reach home (in a house, with friends or families etc) they actually dress normally like use, even worst sometimes (i think, ive never seen it before though, this is from my dad's experience okay?) so yeah, i thought i am ready to use it, after seeing people use it like well...normal people, i dont know that we should use like those Arabs, and the dresscode is kind of heavy for me...i don't know if i am ready, but truly..niat saya membuak2 untuk memakai tudung, but to be me, i like doing it the right way.

So as you can see i am having a major clash in my head. so is it wrong what those people dress that seems normal to us, as it is like in our daily life? you be the judge, for now, i am having a terrible headache as to this matter, and i'm taking a step back to figure out what i can and can not do when i've made my decisions..maybe its true, my intuition on the fact that when i start to use this "covering" qiqi bunny will go bye2...haaa...

owh! before i forgot, if i start too...i might not be able to get married as no one would hit on me as nowadays guys mostly see girl's looks and appearance and not whats inside..those inside crap..are all BULLs! so don't believe when they say inside, the eye make them interested, the knowing part only determines+ the look that make them stay (and maybe some other stuff depend on the individual)... so yeah..i might not get married if i follow 100% of what they say..(maybe i'll do it 100% after i get married)...entah lah....aku pun sebenarnye blur...serabut kepala aku ni haaa...Assalamualaikum~

Happy EID everyone!

2011-08-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

Pictures are not edited + I don't have time to upload all of my camwhoring pics, sorry...haha

Well, the bottom picture is my favorite one...I would just like to wish all of you a Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Merdeka, I am truly sorry if i have done or said some things that might have offended you guys. So, from the bottom of my heart, Maaf zahir dan batin =)

Owh, btw, these pictures are actually my first attempt at using a hijab, this style was my first try trying to lilit-lilit the shawl around me..i did not follow any particular style, just me doing my thing, you could say my own way of lilitkan shawl..haha! I hope i look good covered rather than free hair =)

Lastly, the pictures in my facebook has been changed and all of my old pictures are hidden now. I'm going to upload more pictures of me in tudung in this near future, toodles ^_^ v

2nd date with him~

2011-08-29T00:49:00.000-07:00

Hye there peeps! okay..just a few updates before i talk about the real thing here...as u can see from this 3 pictures below, the first one shows a picture of a macaroon, and the other 2 is a picture of a high heel.

So about the macaroon, well..this is actually my first macaroon that i've tasted..it was just one bite since i wanted to know how macaroon's taste like.. it is damn sweet and well...not my kind of sweets, but its nice though..just not what i would prefer to munch in..haha! this macaroon is actually chocolate. So yeah, that's that.

And this is the high heels i found at my work place, a customer just left it there just because it was a little torn, i mean you could always send for repair right? It's sad how people can just throw things when they could actually still use it..Well, like they say, another man's trash is another man's gain =)

And surprisingly the size turned out to be a perfect fit for me, and FYI..its a branded heels...Woot Woot!! ^_^ v

Okay..now the real scoop!

on the 26/8/2011, i and emy had our second Unofficial date, hehe..why is it unofficial, well because at that time i thought even though we are like ehem ehem together, we are not actually a couple..so yeah, unofficial relationship.
We didn't do much, just did some window shopping , and we talked the whole time when we were together..made stupid jokes, and lastly ended up going karaoke together.

Not going to go any deeper, just to say that, that day was heck awesome! and i love him even more..haha (okay..i know u guys are tired of hearing me say i love this guy i love that guy) but what ever..just see what happens, but what is important we are happy being together and supporting each other...and most of all i am happily in love ~ =)

And lastly, a picture of me with him..haha..i love this picture the most, so yeah...lol..i love u abg! ^_^

Yeah!! Raya is near!!!

2011-08-24T17:30:00.000-07:00

Well, even though i'm darn happy that we are reaching to the end of our fasting month, but unfortunately i have to work like a mad cow due to the man power here. soooo..like i was saying, that means today i'm working full!!!! WEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! (i know u guys know that im faking it~)
Anyways, tomorrow would be my offday (friday) and i was planning i could meet emy, since his coming back today. I've asked my mom and she told me to just stay home (sorry, but i cant do that dearie~) i want to meet emy, even if its for awhile hohohoho!! owh..and yeah..during weekends i would be working full for 2days and thannnnnnn....i'll get my 3days offdays from monday right up to wednesday, yerp! raya baybeh!! Well, i don't celebrate raya, and we don't really go anywhere, even if my friends invite me, i bet my parents won't allow me out..so forget about that.
I was planning to do loads of stuff during my 3days break..that include wishing you guys. and of cause cleaning my room ( who cleans their room during raya??)...so yeah..do hear from me soon..toodless!! ^_^

PS : the picture above got nothing to do with this post, saya suka suki ja letak gambar dye sebab dye lawa..and plus i wonder where she went, dlu famous gilerrr u!! skg dah diam..hmmm~

Fustrated.

2011-08-21T17:10:00.000-07:00

Lately i've been thinking to myself, is it even worth it to ever hold something that u have been holding and caring all this time when you feel that there is no use to ever holding it anymore..this might be a really personal thing to post on my blog, but like ive been telling to myself..my blog my problems, and it is where i stay true to myself.

A few days ago, i've been staying with a friend who is much more younger than i am, due to the fact that my family had to go to Kelantan for a few days and i was unable to get any offdays from work. Truthfully saying, it was one Hell of a good time...only god knows how happy i was being as free as i was on those few days living without hearing my family giving me lectures..it felt like when i was in National Service in Sarawak 4 years ago. I mean...i felt calm and relieve and much more well...free...it is what i wanted all thins time..to do what i want when i want it, to be able to do things without anyone saying "NO" to me...to be able to have sleepovers and come home late and stuff..hye, i did all those things and i was still going to work the next day, so there is not saying that i was irresponsible right?

Yes i do admit that i did not call or even text my parents when i was on my own. I was too carried away with the freedom i had, it really was something..but hye, they were the ones who's supposed to text me telling me whether they have reached there or something. Why do i have to text them if they have already known that i am working and living with my friend that they personally dropped me at. There is no "important" things to update them with. And yes, being parents, its all my fault..and like i have been expected, i would hear more lectures right after i lay my ass in the car. Imagine, just finished work and when you thought you can finally go home , there again the lectures, the yelling the accusing....its getting old for me. Its getting annoying.

I hate the accusing part the assumptions they make, the high tone harsh yelling voices, and most of all, getting lectures and ugutan and comparing..erghhh~ okay...bottom line.."i dont get along with them at all"...i wont live a calm life without ever hearing lectures even for a day..like today, i am on my way to work..and there goes again the lecturing and the harsh remarks, and the ugutan of me going to work by my own..yes i know., im turning 21...but hye..who the fuck rent a house in the middle of no where?! and who was the one making stupid strict rules not letting me to go anywhere without their permission?! or even better, not even step out of the house gate?? and now your trying to intimidate me by forcing me to go to work on my own, just throw me like i was some lost kitten. *sigh~.....okay..writing this is really making me recalling back all those emotions that has been boiling up in me. I dont know if i can ever take another argument and i am forced to shut myself up, or if i don't, the argument would get even worst.

I know i have to be patient..but hye! ive been patient since i was in form2!! how long should i ever be patient again? im turning 21 and im not allowed to have relationships? and they still pick on my friends..yes andi and cici and mimi are my close friends, and they say that i cant be friends with them just because they don't like them?? WTF!? this is my life for heavens sake!! as if i like your friends? i don't complain right!?

hmm..seeing my friends enjoying their life without any restraining does bothers me sometimes, i love my parents my family, if i dont honestly i would have turned out to be some kind of an ungrateful child...i've been holding myself holding onto this family believing that things would turn out better, and if i be patient i can at least have a better future with them..hye..i want my children to be able to visit their grandparents. but seriously this is going too far, i have limits too. My friends are doing okay living by themselves, looking at them, made me realized if i should go on with what i was intending to do all this time "living by myself"...i know im not stupid to admit that its going to be hard, but hye, i have to start somewhere right? how long should i "tinggal bawah ketiak dorang?" Money wise, its going to take a lot of planning and stuff, im still considering with this matter, i want to prove to them that i can be independent, in the same time i am still able to give them some money from my salary and i am still able to improve my life. Maybe i am thinking too much..but not thinking about it is equally bad too..i know they love me and care for me, but they doing it the wrong way. instead of making me feel at home..they are making me feel like i am a burden and an outsider. someone who is bringing so much problem to them. is this the right time...what am i supposed to do...hmmm.....

And lastly, i miss this dude a lot.

When Boredom comes♥

2011-08-16T17:40:00.000-07:00

Okay guys, here's another version of my "what i do when im bored" at work pictures..yes..like always i borrowed the shawl at my work place and play dress up again just to let time past by faster...i dont do this often anymore since my work load has tripled up.. =) being much more busy lately..and due to that busy-ness i got a fuck lecture from my parents and like always some sarcastic remarks...im not in the mood took take this further, what i can say is currently i am freaking pissed and i am freaking annoyed with everything..yes i admit i am not good enough for them..and i kind of feel that i wont ever be good enough at all...how hard i try, how much i do..its always I'm the bad one the useless one...i want to change but it seems like they cant see that and like all human beings, they would always bring up the past even how good you have changed in the future..so yea..thanks to them...my day turn out horrid. toodles =)

Andi Zephyr♥

2011-08-14T17:49:00.000-07:00

Not much to say..saje post gambar of one of my best friend..seriously this version of her pictures really made a big comeback of herself...congrats! im proud of you andi..and seriously...this was a big BOOM!! haha...now its my turn to make my comeback like what i've told you all this time..wish me luck....

Anyway, since i saw andi's comeback photos...at first i was a little nervous that i might not take it seriously and would change my mind for ever being covered later..but instead..im quite surprised that i took it in a positive way, and yes, that kind of shows that i have already made up my mind about wearing the tudung/hijabs...and these pictures of her instead of making me feel miserable..it actually gave me an inspiration..a look i want to do later on..and yes..of cause i would post them on my blog..but not now...because i haven't done anything yet...i was planning to call that look/style as a contribution of andi zephyr what makes me think of her. so wait for them yeah?? =)

When i am bored and full of stress

2011-08-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

Okay guys, this is a quick update before i go to sleep...tomorrow i have to get up early in the morning..sux i know..but that is my responsibility...i want it or not, i still have to...ergh~
Lately ive been playing dress up at work whenever im bored, and well...these are the results i got from those dressing up moments. haha! sorry i dont use a lot of makeup at work, just a little bit so that i look more presentable....but honestly i'm not really into putting stuff on my face anymore..i'd rather be all natural~..heeee
well..ive been thinking a lot about changing myself right, and yes i did say that i want to change into this into that..well, unfortunately i am actually second guessing myself, and lately ive been thinking of being covered for good, yes bertudung..since i got emy in my life, plus the responsibilities and the fact that i am getting older everyday leads me to the idea of covering myself...i did say that i would only use tudung when i get married, but seriously, ive been thinking a lot about it this year, and yes...the way i view it, the lifestyle of me wearing tudung can actually improve myself, because i would be more focus on my life and career instead of mingling around trying to compete with budak2 hot setap nih haa~i mean, qiqi, face the fact life are way to important than just being like those kids who just started to taste life like what u had before right?

1 : whenever u go out and use something sexy like what u usually do, u feel uncomfortable...even u are use to wearing it,.

2 : when u go out and see these kids with DSLR camera and hanging out at KL (pavi,bb,etc)....u have that feeling like..man..i used to be like them..im so over those things..i've done all this lepak2 and seriously..its nothing..plus i had my name before..so why bother?

3 : you want to focus on ur career, and later build up a family (with emy, insya'allah kalau ade jodoh)..hehe....so yeah...that dream doesn't show any signs that u have to be hot setap anymore...just be hot mama je la kot?

4 : I have people around me who loves me the way i am, excluding my family ofcause..i have emy, andi mimi, and yes..i know they would accept me the same even though qiqi dah bertudung...a true friend never judge someone only supports them, and they view people at heart not by how they look like...kan? i'm happy just by having this 3 important people in my life ^_^

5 : im lazy to type anymore because seriously i wrote everything complete and suddenly this stupid blosgpot hanged..and god name it..i have to retype again...bull shitzo!

i want to start to use tudung, but im scared that i might get jealous when i see budak2 hot setap ni and misses my old days..can bertudung still be viewed fashionable? can i still be fashionable dolly2 and cute even though i cover myself up?? ermm..i dont know, i just have to try...but yeah..i think i have made up my mind..its just a matter of time. cherrieos!! =)

I Know that i am annoying..But I love you.

2011-08-05T17:55:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was a really bad day for me, as i did not hear any news from him since he got back from melaka. i was freaking mad and man...i just cant explain how i felt last night..worried, sad, mad,all i know i was not able to control my emotions, i was frantic when i saw his page..well..put it simple..it wasnt nice...my day was a disaster...even this morning..but everything went okay just after he sent me a text..at first i was mad still...but deep in my heart i felt that i can finally relax that i know his okay...we text and all, and things got better...and abg..i just want to say, that i love you...i know i am really annoying and i get all fired up for nothing and most of all..i can be too clingy at times...but that just shows how much i care for u..i just want to be with u and spend time with u...if i dont feel that way , that means i dont truly have feelings for u and that i am still able to flirt with other guys..but no...i am yours...and only yours..i hope that your love wont be the same like all my past love were. and i hope that we could be together like how i dream of our relationship would be...haha...i dont really have the time to write this completely, but i hope this is enough to show how much i love you and i hope that u wont leave me like what the rest did...don't play with my feelings, u promised me u will protect me, and the only thing that can separate us is death..i know this is not for us to judge, but u told me that "kalau ade jodoh, xkemana"..well..its true, but at the same time we should work things out and not let small itty bitty things tare us apart...bagi anje...tuhan ketemukan kite, thats jodoh..tapi kite yang menentukan takdir kite...if whether patut kite bersama atau tidak...abg..do keep your promise, and i promise you that everything would turn out for the best...and yeah..sorry if im just too annoying, i hope you can get use to my attitude like how im learning to get use to yours....everyone is not perfect but i'll try to be as perfect for you...i love you..♥

This song is for you ♥

Angelababy♥

2011-08-03T07:20:00.000-07:00

Another inspiration of mine..this particular photoshoot gives me the floral energy to move forward with my look..haha..i want to be pretty again...btw, she is one of my favorite models...^_^v

I wish that one day i can do a photoshoot that has the same theme as this one...and maybe i could even feature it on my blog for wall papers and stuff...but these days its hard to find willing photographers to take our picture as good as this and for free..hmm

If only i can improved myself and be like this, i bet it will be less painful to see all those bitches that i hold a grudge on, only some people who matters knows who i am talking about...yeah..THOSE BITCH..i want to be better than u sucker! wahahahahah!!! *ignore her, she has gone crazy for awhile*

Pretty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥____________________♥

And how i wish i can have my body like this...i'm trying my best but a puny man like me cant have body structure like this because i was created with man bones..haa..and im fuck short! and FAT!

Btw, this is the vid from the photos above, its actually a small video clip... SUPER Adorable!!!!!

I've Found My Inspiration

2011-08-01T20:08:00.000-07:00

TADAAAA!!!! yup you guess it right, my inspiration in the sense of fashion is actually a local Singaporean "xiaxue", the first time i stumble upon knowing her was through our very own google, I was actually searching for people who write blogs or was it i typed " Famous Bloggers"...so yeah...she is the best so far ^_^

Current mood : Inspired + Hate + Love

Anyway, this is her new picture, haha..sorry for stealing, did not meant to but seriously this picture is soooo ADORABLY PRETTY!!!!! I want to take good pictures like this...i'm getting slacker day by day, like right now, i don't really look human.. =___=

Owh yeah, before i forgot, some of you may have known i love earthly colors now, including pastel and yadyadyaaaa~..so yeah...i love fluffy stuff and i love winter theme kind of trend, you know with the snow cap and craps, and yeah i do love boots a lot but you see..i cant afford them and my last boot went bye bye..RIP bootsy...

Isn't it pretty or what?? ^_^
Well for someone who have a tiny man's body structure like me would look horrid in this kind of clothes, plus i'm a fat PIG!! and yes i'm practically HAIRLESS..but whatever it is, i still want to be upgraded to something like this...call me stubborn i know...

And another thing, i think my bad habits came again....after a dream i had this morning...i was kissing with a dude who i love, it felt so real....and the person im actually referring to in my dream was actually Emy....everything was pointing to him...but when i woke up, i realized that they guy doesn't really look like him even if his tall and fair like emy..but what made me curious was his hair..and sadly to say, his hair resembles so much like my ex..u know who..-_-

Yup, him....hmmm...and there i go stalking this pretty girls page...honestly...i lost hope in myself, i mean last time i do admit that this girl is fuck ugly...but later after awhile when i started to move on plus the fact that im slacking a lot....i see her and i know she has improved a lot based on style since she's with him..yes, you got it right..she is pretty..why is she so pretty? The matter of fact..more than me?! Or am i having a major break down of my self-esteem??? look at her! LOOK AT HER!!! i cant say anything...all i can is..im freaking jealous of her and him..maybe its true you cant really forget about the past. hmm...

WHATEVER

Last but not least, my Emy!! haha..if you guys are curious, his the one wearing the white shirt..his fair right? yeah!! we will make a lot of fair babies!! woot woot! (ignore this bimbo)...plus not to mention his freaking tall too...i love this photo of him...well..his not my boyfriend..im still single, but sorry guys, i'm no longer available..because you see...he has stolen my heart away..haha!! shame shame!! XD

Owh, what saddens me more, even if our relationship impproved in a way, and the time we spent together is more..but do u know that we don't actually contact eachother like normal couple does...its something wrong with him, i think, his busy and he values study more than me..its a good thing i know..but sometimes it feels like im the one who is being overly excited, whereas he doesn't even show any emotion to the public..only me...like for me...you could see im posting many annoying posts showing how i love him so much and stuff right? maybe were different and the way we show our affection is different too...never mind..as long as things are going okay, i pray for the best in the future..Amin ^_^v

Too Fast Too Furios!

2011-07-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhh!!! the picture above here is really cute..i wish i can be as cute as her..awwww~ in your dreams qiqi!! haha...well..why lately your not posting up any pictures of yourself qiqi?

well.....to be honest..i don't really have the time to cam whore..plus whenever i do have the time..i'd rather be snoozing myself off or do other useful things...for example..doing the laundry? online maybe? haaaa....okay2..for the matter of fact i'm just terribly lazy, and i'd prefer having a lot of "me" time for myself..i realized that i'm slacking off a lot lately, or maybe i'm just too effected by what people have been saying to me..yes mostly my parents..what i do usually are not good enough for them, and it saddens me a lot, people cant see how hard i'm trying to make things better, every time when i do something, instead of a thank you..they just shut it..or maybe when i slack off a little or maybe forgot something , there goes the yelling..or when the time when i ask a question they start giving me sarcastic replies in a really harsh tone.. i cant do anything but just keep things to myself, now i have emy to talk to, but seriously i feel like i'm giving him a hard time whereas we don't really have any serious connection towards each other, i do also received help from andi and mimi to keep me calm..these 3 people are the ones who keep me going..a few days ago lysa kind of helped me cheer up....okay, if u guys are curious of these names, just an info, they are my best friend and special people in my life...

So, a quick update of what is going on in my life, i've been really busy since i stared my new job that obviously i hated so much, its not my kind of thing and seriously i feel like giving up but i know i cant because if i do so, i don't know where else to work plus im just going to upset my parents more..i accepted it because i thought the pay was good, instead i wont be able to taste those sweet cash until end of September..yes..two months later..should i just keep up with the agony for the next two months or should i run away? my dad told me, that if i wanted to run, i should have run on the first day i worked there, not after a week...so yeah, there goes the chances of ever running..

Lastly i would like to say...........

I'm Hopping For A Better Future And A Better Life

Hair Express Disaster

2011-07-28T04:58:00.000-07:00

Peeeeettttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hello hello!! haha! well as u know..my hair was practically blonde up already last week! but sadly...it haven't even lasted for a week and i have to dyed it black again due to the demands of my work place..haaaaaa *sux~ * -_____-

Current mood : Pissed off.

Owh ..black hair..why owh why!!!????? well..yes i do want to go black again..maybe around end of this year or early next year..but i did not planned it would be this early!? look how ugly i am in black..i looked freaky!!!! XO

But anyways, when i said i wanted to go black..i guess i cant helped it...i was planning to do my hair something like this later when i have enough money....yeah..getting my extensions , so have to work extra hard for it...( i need cash like so badly..)....speaking of work..my new place sux ass...no fun..pressure and kind of not having friends now..people there are so stuck up..blegh! hate it -___-

and.....my parents don't understand me..hmm =(

so what do u think of this hair?? okay or KO???

Abang~♥

2011-07-24T20:59:00.000-07:00

Current mood : Love ♥

I love this song he introduced me too, never heard of it..yes!! qiqi noob!! clap clap* hahaha!!! anyway..thanks abg for the song..i love it sooooo much!!! ^______^

A day out a sudden relationship♥

2011-07-23T22:48:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Here's are a few pictures of me with my newly bleached (destroyed) hair =)

Ugly huh..i know..well, it was not like what i wanted, but who cares..i don't want to damage it any further..so let it be...i have to try to accept it the way it is now.. i look like a grandmother or a hairless lion..haha!
There no denying that my hair falls a lot, but i would try my best at taking care of it..haha! i am NOT GOING TO SHAVE OFF MY HAIR!! no and a big NO!!

Current mood : Happy and Content ~♥

On that day i was actually still sick..and i'm still am...but i'm getting better day by day, slowly..i'm able to walk around (and not care about my condition)..hehe..anyways, on that day i decided to go to KL with no special reasons...i just wanted a day out..since my parents brought
forward their plans to go to Penang. So i told them i want to go out...my little brother went for an event at The Curve. So it was unfair that he was able to have fun time whereas i have to be stuck at home..right? so there i was asking them that i want to go out! hehe..got lectured in the car for no reason..shitto~ ergh~ X(

Ahhh~ anyway...when i was deciding what to do, i thought of contacting a friend of mine to hang out, but sadly his phone was off..maybe he was still asleep..so there i was thinking in front of my mirror while doing my makeup..and this person suddenly crossed my mind..who is he? his someone who is really special to me now...it was unexpected...seriously..it didn't came to mind at all that i would ask him out..

We've kind of known each other since Myspace..so that means it was about 2-3years before..he told me i was the one who added him up , but i did not even talk to him ~ go figure..was i really that anti social?? no wonder i don't have much friends..haha! sorry dearie...i didn't meant to do that =P

So yeah, we got close in Facebook, and i kind of hated him in a way, because he likes to say really harsh things..i scolded him before, i even say mean stuff like i don't want to be in contact with him and whatever..his intentions was good, but maybe i took it in a negative way..well..i'm quite sensitive u see, and i take things too seriously especially when i'm in a bad mood..and apparently i was at that time..haha! he told me that he cried when i scolded him...cry? really? well maybe "tersentap and tersedeh, terkecil hati, etc"..i am one scary girl when i'm mad..and i usually get mad easily, but im easy to be cooled down..so that is not a problem right? =)

So anyways, i kind of made a really bad impression the first time we met, first time! see that? after what? 2years of knowing each other via online....i met my friends mostly there tho, close ones...famous ones..so i don't really blame the net so much when there's ups and downs..
He was sweet in a weird way...we bond instantly there and then..^_^
i dragged him all the way to Pavilion for nothing from Time Square, and we kind of ended up back at time square, didn't do much..because i don't want to waste anymore money on needless stuff..remember i wasted RM150 earlier?? ='(

So yeah, we ended up spending our time chitchatting at some sitting area for more than 3hours! and it was hilarious! i think we bond really well at that time...i felt butterflies in me~ i blushed....i nearly cried..haha..he was sweet..and when its time to go back...i felt something blossoming in me...i felt a really calm energy in me...he accompanied me until i was safe, took my bus and that was our goodbye...but since that day, we didn't stop texting..hehehe..that's was really an unexpected relationship...and i think i love the path we are taking =)

Random Post~

2011-07-21T21:42:00.000-07:00

Peeeeeettttttttttt!!! hello and welcome again...!!!!! It's been a while sinced i left my bloggie all alone in a really pretty room~ yeppie! okay now...as u can see..i'm in a really good mood ^___^v

Current mood : Good ^_^

Okay first of all, in this post u can view a few ugly pictures of me (beware! its UGLY!!) when i am sick...and well..i am still sick..haha...it was last friday if i was not mistaken, took it when i had a day off searching stuff around KL....owh..did i mentioned my hair is no longer brown like the picture above here and below?? (minus the UGLYYYY one of cause~)....i've bleached my hair...the ugly picture was a picture of me when i've bleached it for the first time..u cant really see it because i tied my hair...opppss!! it was messy..so don't bother looking...haaaa~ XO

ANYWAY..................TADAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! here's the ugly picture i promised ..see..ugly right?? heheheheheh *senyum kambing* owh...i was really sick at that time, so do excuse me with the condition of my face...i know it is not the best sight ever..haha...i was in the bus on my way to KL....owh! btw, this is pure..no make up no lens (as u can see, i was wearing my glasses..yes im practically blind in a way~) and plus im sick..so that is one sicky face u got there!! yes2!! happy haters must enjoyed looking at this shitty pic of me...like..wow!! qiqi is really UGLYYYYYYY!!!!!! heck yeah i am!!! woot wooot!! XD

Owh! btw, like i've promised, this is the shampoo i bought at Watson Sunway the other day, i just bought the shampoo and the conditioner, no treatment and no hair spray, i can't afford at that time..haha, got other stuff to buy....

And.......................................

TADAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!! ended up wasting my precious money on stuff that was not really important..booo me!!! well..i guess i lost sight of my spending's at that moment ...pardon my shortcomings...haha...i think i've finished about RM150 on that exact day.....yeah!! a week's worth of salary~ =)

i bought this CD which i wanted to buy for the past 8months ago..and now i finally bought it thanks to my bad habit which i think kind of came in handy at that time~ =)

A top i bought for my new look..it was RM10....okay i guess....need to change my style..so need to get a few new stuff ...no? =)

A wallet i bought for myself for RM10...weee!! this was awesome, i'm proud of it a lot..because i was actually looking for a wallet at that time..and i decided to look around some more before i settle for the first one, and look where it got me...not a bad choice either..nice investment worth my money ^_^

A dress i've been aiming for quite sometime, i'm not sure if this was actually a dress or a skirt, but whatever it is..i love it...i'm going to make it as a dress, i bought this for RM25, and i think it was worth it..because, i did my research and search and compared prices..guess what? people these days are crazy in marking up prices..i asked before, and they sold it for RM35 and the other one i asked was RM30....haaa..jauh beza harga sebenar kan...pilahhhh!! XO i was lucky i did not bought it on impulse...haha!!
But...................

This i regreted..haaa..i bought this for RM29, i thought it was worth it because it comes in a set...but unlucky me....i went to the shop where i bought my dress, and the exact dress was only RM25 or was it RM15..see the difference??!!!! haaa....such waste..but what can i do, i've bought it..so terima jelah..redha babe!! haha ='(

Over all, i am happy with it, i'm not happy at the fact that i wasted a week's worth of salary, but i'm happy because at last i got the chance to shop for something (a.k.a clothes)...it's been a while since i went shopping, i think it has been nearly 5months...haha!! XD

toodles~

.::. Life Demands .::.

2011-07-17T03:06:00.000-07:00

Picture above got nothing to do with this post

Some people can get things easily, others have to work their butts off just so they are barely able to support themselves, and still they have other demands and responsibilities they have to fulfill...

Life is unfair i must say, i am not blaming anyone here, i'm just saying why can life be so unbalanced? It amazed me how some people can just sit around doing nothing or just say a simple word like "i want this, i want that" and wallah!! there u go, u have it in no time..awesome right? it feels just like magic...whereas on the down side of this story, some people have to do every day's labour, working like no body's business, just so they could survive...

I am at lost to think, how can this people live their life so easily? well everyone...here's the thing, people nowadays live in a life that is full off fantasies, made believed. They gain what they have mostly by owing and dept, i'm not saying its bad, but its still not good either.

And some group of people can also cheat just so they can have what they want, they cheat and yet now u see they live happily without doing anything...amazing huh?? I got a few friends who does that, cheat and lie to people so that they gain money or something from them, and yes, they don't have to work for it. It WOW'ed me!! And what surprised me is that, they don't really care if they get caught..because, well..if they ever did get caught, there is still others they can prey on. You can call this as gold diggers i guess..right? even if it not much like buying you houses and cars, but still as long as you don't have to work, your still in the same category. And well, they don't actually feel sorry for what they have done, instead they are really proud of it.

Now, what is real and what is not? Does this world has come into a conclusion where you have to cheat and lie just so you can get something? Do you have to steal so that you can get what you want? Why is it so hard for people who have to work like mad cows just to survive? Why does kids nowadays just have their parents support and dont really have to come out with anything just to make their dreams come true? I mean like seriously, it is so unfair..why cant these people start with nothing and just work their way up, it is not as easy as it seems, working by yourself, trying to make ends meet. So now, please do think wisely, You guys are throwing out money like nobody's business and yet there is people out there who have to dig into thrash bins just so they can have something for them and their family to eat. Kids in primary school are using Blacberry handphones Iphone 4, and whatever new gadgets these days, where as some people cant even afford all that and yet they are working 12 hours a day 7 days a week...unfair, so unfair..if only people these days are able to open their eyes and stop making other people's life like a living hell..Do look around you and do appreciate for what you have..Okay?? Good for you. Buhbunny~ (^_^)v

Bon Odori 2011

2011-07-16T22:17:00.000-07:00

Last night after work i head out to Shah Alam to join my friends and little brother for the yearly annual Bon Odori 2011..tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Owh, not much to do there, just hanged out with a bunch of cosplay friends, and yeah, ended up being the security guard to take care of people's things, and some random group of Chinese strangers..haha..

Btw, when i was busy taking care of people's things, here come a bunch of hot dudes trying to take photos of the event..ahh..one of those dude smiled at me, he was GOD DAMN HOT WEYH!!!!! ergh...maksiat2..haha!! maybe he was trying to be nice -___- (but he talked to me..uhh..suara mu merdu weyh!! dh la pandai ckp english plak tuh!! ehem ehem!! *ignore this girl* )...huuu.....serious i am soooo excited and horny looking at him..(horny qiqi??seriously??O.o?) but whatever..haha...anyway, that was just that i guess..i bet i looked freaking hilarious in front of him because well...i don't know..i looked suckish i guess...hmm...well, atleast i got the chance to stare at hot guys for a bit, even if i didn't get the chance to ask for his no or fb address...haaa..melepas~ T___T

This is what i had on that day..Japanese curry rice!! XD

Took a few pictures of my friends..=)

This is a part of the event, not much as last year tho i guess, i don't know..that's from my point of view =)

Me cam whoring myself out of boredom ^_^

Irresistible indulgence

2011-07-16T22:02:00.000-07:00

I've just bought this Handbag for myself (yes, pinjam duit orang dulu sebab duit gaji belum masuk)...anyways, i'm happy because i've been planning to get a bag that looks something like this..well, in red actually, but since i wanted to change my style of fashion, i ended up buying the peachy cream color instead...haaa..it's pretty still..i'm happy..=)

Current mood : Happy and Content ^_^

Annonymous Jerk -____-

2011-07-16T20:48:00.000-07:00

Yes , hye there again peeps! well, as u can see, lately i've been busy and having bloger's block as i can't seem to be able to post anything, due to the blur and idea-less brain i have now...

anyways, i am quite lazy to help my mom in the kitchen, hye, it's my off day, i need some rest too right? everytime when it comes to my off day i would be end up working at home (yes, labor work) haha..so i'm kind of avoiding it for now..imagine waking up on a beautiful sunday morning and u have to be forced to clean the garage? haaa....so yeah, helped out a bit and there i go snicking out and back to my usual seat in front of the PC....hye! i pay the internet Bil, so i have the right to use it...i always didn't get the chance to use it at all -___-

Okay, so these are the pictures i took last Monday, i was supposed to accompany my Lil sys on a date after work..the pictures in here are all pure..no edit at all..so the quality is ..well..original i guess =)

On that day it was well....... sux ass, because all the trouble started on that day, yes, i kind of had a misunderstanding a.k.a fought with the workers at my place, he quited his job last Friday...but anyways, this jerk ass seems to hold a grudge on me..u know kids nowadays don't have the tendency to quit and just stop being so fuck up =)

He was being such a...dumb dumb ass motherfucka...but whatever..not having the mood to talk about it now....okay..so and so..i was planning to quit my job...well..supposedly had planned to quit on the last day of puasa...but i guess it MUST be brought forward as i am seriously pissed of at that place...the torture of seeing ur friends gets poisoned by that fuck up ass hole...huh!

Current mood : Annoyed + Pissed -____-

Okay, so anyways, i was planning to go for an interview..i don't know where tho..where can i work at a place where i can actually be pretty and in the same time earn load of $$$$$???

umm..this picture of me reminds me of someone.....someone i actually hate so much =)

Not much to talk actually, just to sum it up, this whole week was a piece of crap..haha..but whatever it is, i'm still okay with it ^_^

I want that!!

2011-07-13T07:40:00.000-07:00

Since last time i always dreamed of having really blond hair, and that's the reason why i bleached my hair years ago that ended me up with really crappy weak hair, i don't know if it really effects my hair until today, but seriously it creeps me out! try to imagine seeing your hair falls like someone who had just gotten leukemia..i mean my hair is really thin and i don't know if bleaching was behind it...but yeah, i was freaked out so i decided to bald my head last year ( yeah, i was bald for about 3months or so) so now my hair have already grown about shoulder length..*took me 1 1/2 years*

So anyway, i was thinking to do it again..and play with my faith a little..i mean xiaxue (the girl in this pic) actually blond her hair and she stays that way..and her hair is really pretty...i personally adore her looks...and seriously if i can, i really want my hair to stay that way too..going bald was a big mistake i think even though there is a believe that by balding your head u can actually gain much more thicker hair (which i did not get..obviously) and that it would make your hair grow much more healthier..which i think its not true too..i mean..i went all the way and shaved my hair off and i still end up with thin fragile hair which still falls..(do explain that please~)..and what is more annoying is that, when i asked my dad is it true that when i was small..i was actually born with naturally thin hair..and he can gladly said "YES"..ergh!!!! the torture of being BALD!!!!! can u imagine how it feels like?????!!! (and plus its annoying to see both of your siblings having thick luscious hair except for you....haaaa...

okay..yeah so now what ever it is, i am still considering to blond my hair ...and well..it makes me wonder why there's so many people now days are able to blond their hair without getting the damaged that i experience? example my ex slay...he did his hair and it was fine...so...it really makes me wonder..owh! and another thing, i was planning to change my shampoo and try out something new...i actually was browsing for a shampoo i saw a few months ago that can actually add volume to ur hair ..but apparently it was not there anymore..so yeah, when i was searching and looking around..i saw this new Pantene shampoo..combination with Wella..i was planning to try it out, going to get the whole set on my next salary...haha..hope it suits my hair!! ^_^

Ps : Sorry if this post have a lot of grammar mistakes, to lazy to correct it..lol

Wasting time~

2011-07-10T05:02:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhh~ I'm freaking hungry right now, and damn lazy to get my ass off this chair..haha..well, did not do much today on my off day..working tomorrow again..haaaa..lately i've lost my interest in working since the "Z" issue....i feel like there's nothing more that i am looking forward too...but whatever, i'm fine..i'm going to stop soon anyway...the only reason i'm still there is because i'm keeping my promise to stay until im ready to go off, and plus i have to wait for my friend since both of us were planning to quit on the same day...i'm just working for the money now, nothing else...even if its not much/ not enough...but i jut do what i can now~ =)

Today, i've just found out i had just bought the same comic book that i bought before ( i don't know how many times this had happened to me-____-)....impulsive buying is bad..haha...silly me! =P

Current mood: *sigh~with a smile...=)

Owh and yeah, i wanna re-decorate my room so badly! but sadly im kind of out of cash to buy stuff for the decorating project..haha...apparently, i'm only left with RM8 in my wallet to last me till the next salary day on the 20th.....Owh, and not to mention tomorrow, after work, i have to accompany my lil sys on a date with her boy and a bunch of her friends (with me out of cash)....haaa....how am i supposed to overcome this? i myself don't know...haha~

Owh, i just love the song i posted below here, got this from a friends account, it feels as if whatever happened to the love life in my past before..i know someday there would be a guy who would love me and deserves me..as much as i deserves him...so yeah, in a way, thank god that i wont be ending up being with those bunch of suckers in my life later, even tho how i love and wanted them so much before and maybe now..but whatever...im happy the way i am now..i feel like i am on top of the world...i am my own boss! and i know one day there is someone there, for me, just for me! ^_^

Owh and another thing, i love black , white, pink and blue color..but i currently feel like i have a change of interest, i currently love more white and baby pink and some pastel/matte and baby colors~ maybe its because of the fact that i am changing my life and style =)

okay..till than i guess~